revolutions screaming for attention
i am mostly tired, stealing a few hours at a time- here and there, on and off all day. and i ought to write tonight, but part of me is worried that nothing will come out the way i mean it to. i have been having trouble with this lately.
i saw mill creeks version of the odd couple tonight with the cast and part of the crew and monte j. howell. it was...interesting. i feel a lot better about my character now. and you never realize how you are on stage until you see someone preform the exact same lines.
on that note, i listened to rent today in toutmans car and somewhere along the lyrics i got lost in my thoughts. somewhere along the way ive lost matt and i think it will be nearly impossible to get him back. to have him be my friend the way he was before all the shit hit the fan. i wish sometimes he just made me feel worthy. but all his presence does it make me feel vunerable and unfufilling.
i am in love with paul and gus.ok not really, i just really like being around them. they make me laugh which is superfab. speaking of which im going to CSU with my peeps to audition for theatre scholarships. oy vey. can we say nerve wracking?!?! im shaking just thinking about it right now. it should be an adventure though. thats how i have to look at it to stop from throwing up.
in less exciting news, my body is not what i want it to be right now, and it is both girlscout cookie and easter candy season which= bad news for a fatkid like me.
and now onto my 80 zillion pages of Tim O'Brian that i HAVE to read..damnnit.
truthfully, all i want is to sleep until i am tired no longer. wishful thinking.
i saw mill creeks version of the odd couple tonight with the cast and part of the crew and monte j. howell. it was...interesting. i feel a lot better about my character now. and you never realize how you are on stage until you see someone preform the exact same lines.
on that note, i listened to rent today in toutmans car and somewhere along the lyrics i got lost in my thoughts. somewhere along the way ive lost matt and i think it will be nearly impossible to get him back. to have him be my friend the way he was before all the shit hit the fan. i wish sometimes he just made me feel worthy. but all his presence does it make me feel vunerable and unfufilling.
i am in love with paul and gus.ok not really, i just really like being around them. they make me laugh which is superfab. speaking of which im going to CSU with my peeps to audition for theatre scholarships. oy vey. can we say nerve wracking?!?! im shaking just thinking about it right now. it should be an adventure though. thats how i have to look at it to stop from throwing up.
in less exciting news, my body is not what i want it to be right now, and it is both girlscout cookie and easter candy season which= bad news for a fatkid like me.
and now onto my 80 zillion pages of Tim O'Brian that i HAVE to read..damnnit.
truthfully, all i want is to sleep until i am tired no longer. wishful thinking.