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funny how things go, this morning iw as seriously contemplating suicide, i even went so far as to get out my sharpest scaple and get the shower running and as i was half undressed i got a visitor. now as i didnt want to have anything to do with this visitor who was doing a house changeing job for my mum i called a friend to get me the fucking hell out of my house, so Kryssie came and picked me up. we went backl to her house for an hour or so and then her bro said lets go to the beach, and i said lets go swimming! i was still feeling a bit off at this stage and its bloody sub zero here i swear, so anyway went swimming and froze our balls off and then came back to my place for hot drinks to get our blood moving again. it was great the visitor left and i felt great, now while i am not feeling so wonderful again i am at least not so hell bent on topping myself, Kryssie should definately be given a goddess-ship as this is not the first time i have stopped myself from suicidal activities coz of her. Thanks hun, love you, even tho i know you will never get to read this journal....