Wow Its been a long while......
Yeah I haven't updated in a while and the sad part is nothing has really happened that was very eventful the whole time. Except that I am a bad person and an even worse girlfriend.I know I am and yeah I am not trying to make people feel sorry for me I just can't talk to any one really about it so I guess at least this way you can know about me and what's going on and what's been wrong with me lately. No, I do not tell you right away because I like playing games. I really hate the games as much as you do and I don't think it's funny and really I don't even consider them a game. I do it because I don't know how to tell you what I am feeling without getting a "my feelings are stupid because you don't feel the same way" reaction. So yeah I am sorry. But at least now you know why. Yeah I am a bad girlfriend and I have I am really sorry about that too and if you have any ideas for me to fix I will try my hardest. I am sorry. I suck. I am very serious.I know I do. It's sad and I am sad. And I am trying to ruin every good thing I have. I don't know why. It's bothering me really bad. But I feel like I am constantly making Adam miserable and I keep thinking that maybe he would be better off without me. But the worse part is I know he would be. And yeah it hurts... really bad. And I am pretty sure thats what I am upset the most about. Oh yeah and the fact that every other thing important to me is slipping away too. Yeah everything. I can't handle this kind of stuff right now. I have no one really to talk to to about it and I feel really lost. But yeah I guess thats just me. Okay I suppose thats it for now.