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Melissa got me a birthday gift, nice box set of "The Lord of the Rings" with "The Hobbit" included, as well as "The Lord of the Rings, A reader's Companion", which is to explain all the subtle things one might not understand. Flipping through it, it seems to be full of mostly technical issue, like distances between locations and very subtle expressions. For example, using the term flying when the character is moving very fast. It's reminds me of all the trekies who pour over every episode and noting the inconsistency, only thiss is on a word to word basis. In any case it is a truly wonderful birthday gift.
Last night I learned a very important thing about myself. What drive me and influences my very actions. I've said before that I am passive or that I don't like conflict. Those where merely describing my acting, not why I do them. Well, I discovered the reason behind them. Fear. Fear is what cause me to do the things I do. I am full of fear. I can go into far more detail of what this fear is, but that is unimportant to this musing.
This information is incredibly valuable to me, but does not offer an solution in and of itself. I now understand that I do things out of fear but know that does not remove the fear. I can not ignore the fear, it will always be there and suffering through fear is the same, if not worse than, having it. I can not avoid fear as everything I do is influenced by and thus everything can bring me fear. what this has given me is the understanding of the fear. By understanding it I can try to eliminate it. But how do you rid yourself of fear? Expererance the most extreme condition of it, such as a person who is scared of heights being forced to be in a very high, almost unsafe place? Perhaps. Understanding the fear as it can have no real harm to me, such as fear small insects or blood? That could be a possibility.
As of now I am unsure how I am to rid myself of my fear. However by learning of it's existence I can now observe my reaction to this fear. It is quite possible I can be learn that my fear is pointless or at the very least the consequences I fear will not be nearly as extreme as I fear them to be.
Arrow, signing out.
Last night I learned a very important thing about myself. What drive me and influences my very actions. I've said before that I am passive or that I don't like conflict. Those where merely describing my acting, not why I do them. Well, I discovered the reason behind them. Fear. Fear is what cause me to do the things I do. I am full of fear. I can go into far more detail of what this fear is, but that is unimportant to this musing.
This information is incredibly valuable to me, but does not offer an solution in and of itself. I now understand that I do things out of fear but know that does not remove the fear. I can not ignore the fear, it will always be there and suffering through fear is the same, if not worse than, having it. I can not avoid fear as everything I do is influenced by and thus everything can bring me fear. what this has given me is the understanding of the fear. By understanding it I can try to eliminate it. But how do you rid yourself of fear? Expererance the most extreme condition of it, such as a person who is scared of heights being forced to be in a very high, almost unsafe place? Perhaps. Understanding the fear as it can have no real harm to me, such as fear small insects or blood? That could be a possibility.
As of now I am unsure how I am to rid myself of my fear. However by learning of it's existence I can now observe my reaction to this fear. It is quite possible I can be learn that my fear is pointless or at the very least the consequences I fear will not be nearly as extreme as I fear them to be.
Arrow, signing out.