Part II...after school..lol

[_apwil_]

So after being sedated i fell asleep, and Dr Gomes comes in and started talking to my mom. Who knows what she said I was high! Wake up, and my mom tells me that the doctor had said they never had to inflate the baloon to expand my so called narrow vein, because I DONT HAVE NARROW VEINS. WHAT I HAVE IS A DAMN POTENTIAL FISTULA. IT HAS A MIND OF ITS OWN, IT KNOWS IT DOESNT LIKE DIALYSIS..thats why im always in pain. But non of my nurses dont understand that, they think yea shes prob faking it. If i was faking it you think I would want to have an extra hour of treatment. Come one use your common sense. Whatever i could careless if Im on for 4 hrs, Im not like the other people who complain, get mad, and fight so they can get their own way. I want to be dialyze well, i want to have a good clearance. By the way for my dialysis friends the clearance for this month was 70%, guess its not good enough. But whatever thats life. You gain some you loose some. I gaine my way which is I wanted to run in 150 because my arm is not killing me on that rate where I've had anxiety attacks on the machine, but I lost my 3 hr treatment. I accept it. Hell it beats Peritoneal dialysis..that overnight crap for 11 hrs. Now i just want to switch shifts, but how can i morning shifts are taken. But will see what my nurse Arlene says....

-i HAVE rash now on my left shoulder, I think its a reaction from the Iodine from the procedure on tuesday. No fever, but will see tomorrow with the doctors appt I have.

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