ugh*
humm...well...as usual things suck ...not much to talk about..
i'm trying to get my parents to move..anywhere...because i'm so sick of pound & my friends..and everything..nothing is the same..i just want things to be the way they used to be when we were so innocent..nothing got in the way of our friendships..but i guess i'll just have to accept the fact that we're growing up..and boys/drugs/& anything else can ruin friendships...or make them stronger it's just who wants to forgive & forget..but i just don't know how things are going right now..it seems like i'm alone..and i have no friends..okay that's totally wrong..i have tasha louie sydney angela...but things with me molly & brittany haven't been goin so well lately..i don't know if they know how i feel about things or not..i feel left out from their conversations or when they hang out on weekends..i'm not invited..i mean they can go out together they don't have to invite me..BUT they try to hide it from me? i don't understand it's like they don't wanna share their lives with me? they are my best friends...and are/were the only ppl i trust(ed) for a while...but i dunno...i'm just so ready to move right now..FAR away...
i don't think i'll be writing in this much more..i'm gettin sick of lj..so w/e*
the gift -- seether *
Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...
i'm trying to get my parents to move..anywhere...because i'm so sick of pound & my friends..and everything..nothing is the same..i just want things to be the way they used to be when we were so innocent..nothing got in the way of our friendships..but i guess i'll just have to accept the fact that we're growing up..and boys/drugs/& anything else can ruin friendships...or make them stronger it's just who wants to forgive & forget..but i just don't know how things are going right now..it seems like i'm alone..and i have no friends..okay that's totally wrong..i have tasha louie sydney angela...but things with me molly & brittany haven't been goin so well lately..i don't know if they know how i feel about things or not..i feel left out from their conversations or when they hang out on weekends..i'm not invited..i mean they can go out together they don't have to invite me..BUT they try to hide it from me? i don't understand it's like they don't wanna share their lives with me? they are my best friends...and are/were the only ppl i trust(ed) for a while...but i dunno...i'm just so ready to move right now..FAR away...
i don't think i'll be writing in this much more..i'm gettin sick of lj..so w/e*
the gift -- seether *
Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...