i don't want to live, but i don't want to die.

[_antihero]

i don't want to talk, but i don't want to listen.
i don't want to read what's already been written.
i don't want to sleep, but i can't stay awake.
i don't want to repair what i didn't break.
i don't want to watch, but i won't lower my stare.
i don't want to worry, and i don't seem to care.
i don't want to fight, but i don't want to forget.
i don't want to remember, and i don't want to regret.