...and when you cry be sure to dry your eyes
i never thought this would happen to me. today it rained, i was kid of happy about it, i dont know why.. i usualy hate rain. i think im going to make some different decisions, branch out more. try new things, what can it hurt? i cant wait to go to college and just be free from all of this, everything. i hate the word drama, but i accidently say it a lot. i love laughter, it makes everything seem so much better. secrets are funnny things.. when you tell someone a "secret" 9 out of ten times they are going to tell someone else and then that someone will tell another someone and so on.. this has taught me that the only person someone can truely trust is themselves. think about it. i hate the word attractive. whos to say that a person is or isnt attractive. i also hate the word skinny, so much. how many of your friends do you think you will still talk to in five years? for me its about 3, and i hardly ever even hang out with them, but i know they will always be there for me forever. its a fantastic feeling. my grades suck, i have better things to do then to worry about that. sorry if ive ever been a bitch to you or given you a mean look, i probably didnt meen it. life goes on, i wont even remember this moment in like a year or a month or something. im 15. i never thought i would be dealing with shit like this when i was 15. whatever, im so over it. i think i want to go to a movie or something soon.. wanna come? sorry if you read this, its just me rambling and complaining. i really am happy. a good friend is there for you no matter what, the good times or bad times. i hope i am a good friend. 117