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ok, so today...i worked...yesterday,i did something to check out something for myself, and now i feel like shit...like...a big fucking bitch that should die.why doesnt everyone start a fuck that bitch club (for the people that wish i was dead) -chele, colby, now jeremy, a lot more people i cant think of right now...and fuck...ill join to. but ,for one...i just have to say it...wtf did i ever do to you?!? chele...other than tell someone you betrayed their trust...what? i mean, yeah...thats fucked up...but didnt they deserve to know...i could understand never trusting me again...but hating me and referring to me as"though who i shant mention" or some shit like that?idk...shit like that fucking hurts...brandon got over everything, kat did too, crystal...but no...some how i screwed you over the most huh?w/e...it just pisses me off that i cant say i love that girl, she one of my best friends...now i have to be like...yeah, shes a fucking awesome person...i WISH we were friends.and colby...i broke up with you. boo fucking hoo...you wanna be a bitch for that, fine. i did absolutely nothing wrong to you, yet you fucking make it out like i broke your god damn heart...well sorry. not rly but still...and then...jeremy...if you werent lying to me then i feel so disgusting...your the one person i think has the right to hate me...and never talk to me again. If you were lying to me...i cant even think about that because the thought of you not overwhelms me....i wish i could take it back...but where would that put me...in a mindsight filled of regret, so instead i hope that you can be the biggest person i fucking know and forgive me, but if not i fully respect your decision...i hate when people say they hate themselves because of stupid shit...but if you knew the whole situation...youde hate me too. but to get off the subject that has seeped through my entire mind...today was good besides that...this weekend was ok actually. went to the K-house with brit...fun stuff. Then we went to sam goddy after we woke up, chilled their,I saw my cody!, then i went to work, got off, slept, went to work this morning, got off, chilled with david who happend to be going to see the same movie as me...and he made me feel tons better...homosexuals tend to have that effect on me...but yeah, we saw phantom of the opera...and omg...i cried my ass off...it was fucking awesome...like...fur real that movie so = love. anywho...thats about all...in a pissy mood so im done. later.