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i had just got my pics back from wallmart...some didnt turn out, but most did. one of the four roles wasnt mine,,, it was my friends, skylers, from s.c...i dont know how i had that...but i did. but...wow...pictures are depressing...they bring yuou back to a time in your past...and rather that time had been good of bad...they both make you depressed...these were so great times...i miss it...i mean...i have pictures from right before rob left to go to the army when me him crystal chele and kat went to the beach, when we all burried each other...and i have a picture of chele and kat together...god they looked adorable and so fuckin happy, and then...hahaha..a pic of chele at yodas i got...HAHAHAHA...ones at the bowling alley...me and yoda...me and brandon and kat, chele colin and some other person, kat brandon and crystal...a picture of crystal with richard from the last school year...one of me and rachele outside during lunch ( do you even remember our lunch last year?!? the talks about our shopping finds and all...hehe)so many...and i know im probably the only one...but i miss that...i miss your long hair brandon...the perks memories...the whole "my milkshake mix w/our song", i miss cheles weirdness and simple cheerfullness...the way...even when you were puking your guts out at yodas house, you still seemed happy...kat, i miss you...the old you...the one SOOO happy to be able to be spending time with all of us...over and over each day...the one that i shared our entire pasts with at your house that one time...when you made me tell you like...all i knew about chele...gah, crystal...i miss our one on one talks...even the ones when i didnt live here...*coughcoughfirstbadexperiencecoughcough*. lol, i guess all im saying is...i miss you guys...i miss us...the way we were...i can look at these pics and see that we were all...genuinly happy...even myself...i want it back...but i think im the only one...well...bye.

gawd,,,this is the second post today that has me crying...er