guilt?
not that I don't always have some kind of guilt, but now I feel like I've been slacking, even though I really haven't (that much).
by putting all this pressure to do it all on myself, I've accomplished even less.
I was extremely NOT nice today, and I hate that feeling.
because sometimes, I forget that there are things that are more important than the here and now.
here's what I'm pulling to prevent: losing (again), sucking on exams (again), not getting a medal that means something (again), losing track of all my friends (again), and letting undeserving people get my spot.
because let's face it, if I do not have power (in many senses of the word) next year, we're fucked.
and there are many horror stories to avoid.
eventually, I'll get things done.
this winter, need to haul so much ass.
but I'm ready for that.
I need to rock my first AP tests (meaning, study!) and essays (meaning, write!)
and I really need to start getting more sleep and being less bitchy to everyone, because let's face it, it's not their fault.
latest philosophy: it's not worth it to waste energy being mean. save it for the people who actually deserve it.
added to: let it follow/don't care beyond what it's worth.
and now, it's time to get SOMETHING done.
by putting all this pressure to do it all on myself, I've accomplished even less.
I was extremely NOT nice today, and I hate that feeling.
because sometimes, I forget that there are things that are more important than the here and now.
here's what I'm pulling to prevent: losing (again), sucking on exams (again), not getting a medal that means something (again), losing track of all my friends (again), and letting undeserving people get my spot.
because let's face it, if I do not have power (in many senses of the word) next year, we're fucked.
and there are many horror stories to avoid.
eventually, I'll get things done.
this winter, need to haul so much ass.
but I'm ready for that.
I need to rock my first AP tests (meaning, study!) and essays (meaning, write!)
and I really need to start getting more sleep and being less bitchy to everyone, because let's face it, it's not their fault.
latest philosophy: it's not worth it to waste energy being mean. save it for the people who actually deserve it.
added to: let it follow/don't care beyond what it's worth.
and now, it's time to get SOMETHING done.