All the empty things disguised as me
Oh yay, I look all bubly and happy and so "whatever". But I feel like I'm filling up with rocks. So I'll put down the face for a second.
Things on my mind as of right now:
1. Dad. Dad says he'll buy me a new car, then changes his mind. Dad says he's proud of me but blows a fuse because I will miss class on friday for UCF Orientation. Dad offers me money, gets mad when I accept. Worst of all, Dad can't tell me these things, he tells mom instead. I'm nineteen. I can handle someone not being happy with me.
2. Mass Communications project. The people in my group are great fun, nice people. But today everyone in the group depended on me to dictate and basically write out their assignment for them. If this is the way its gonna be, then it isn't gonna be fun. I also hate my teacher for not accepting any work before the deadline. This means I lose 20 points even if I hand in my assignment the day before.
3. Mythology teacher is an obnoxious hippie. Enough said.
4. Moving, again. I have to pack, organize, buy a bed, paint, unpack, get a job, get settled, be a student, be nineteen, be a girlfriend... lots of stuff to be/think about.
5. Money. I'm running out, and I don't want to dig into my savings bonds.
6. Trying to find time to have fun. I'm a bore, I don't drink all that much anymore, and everyone's so busy. I feel bad trying to steal some day time for friend stuff, like coffee, lunch, pool, just hanging out. Stuff we used to do.
7. The fact that my head doesn't have enough room for all of these things.
But I guess all I can do is be like Scarlett. I wont think about that now. I'll think about that tomorrow.
Things on my mind as of right now:
1. Dad. Dad says he'll buy me a new car, then changes his mind. Dad says he's proud of me but blows a fuse because I will miss class on friday for UCF Orientation. Dad offers me money, gets mad when I accept. Worst of all, Dad can't tell me these things, he tells mom instead. I'm nineteen. I can handle someone not being happy with me.
2. Mass Communications project. The people in my group are great fun, nice people. But today everyone in the group depended on me to dictate and basically write out their assignment for them. If this is the way its gonna be, then it isn't gonna be fun. I also hate my teacher for not accepting any work before the deadline. This means I lose 20 points even if I hand in my assignment the day before.
3. Mythology teacher is an obnoxious hippie. Enough said.
4. Moving, again. I have to pack, organize, buy a bed, paint, unpack, get a job, get settled, be a student, be nineteen, be a girlfriend... lots of stuff to be/think about.
5. Money. I'm running out, and I don't want to dig into my savings bonds.
6. Trying to find time to have fun. I'm a bore, I don't drink all that much anymore, and everyone's so busy. I feel bad trying to steal some day time for friend stuff, like coffee, lunch, pool, just hanging out. Stuff we used to do.
7. The fact that my head doesn't have enough room for all of these things.
But I guess all I can do is be like Scarlett. I wont think about that now. I'll think about that tomorrow.