[Fic] Obsession
Title: Obsession
by: Ame no Chikara
Rating: PG
Pairing: Adam/Hiro; Onesided
Warnings: Spoilers for End of Volume 2
Summary: Adam wonders how Hiro could have been so heartless
How could you be so heartless? You gave me the world- you showed me everything I could be, made me into who I was, and then you ripped it from me without any remorse. How could anybody be so ignorant of another person's feelings?
When it boils down to it, I only wanted to see that feeling in your eyes again. I wanted to see you enthralled with me, captivated by my every movement and worshipping my every step. I just wanted to be your world once more.
Everything you thought I was must have been built out of a lie to begin with, anyway. Every legend I ever heard about Takezo Kensei was a complete lie. I do not know what they wanted to make me out to be- I was simply human, it was you that was the God.
As my hands run up and down the inside of this coffin, I wonder if you could have even imagined a crueler fate for me. How did you not understand me, Hiro? In all of my existence, I have never met anyone that has understood me as well and yet as little as you. Looking back on that short time we spent together, I wonder if you even understood me then.
Do you actually know why I call you carp? It started as a joke at first. I was drunk as usual and thought that your puffy cheeks and wide eyes made you look like a fish. And then you took my heart. I was scared and even a little embarrassed. Never before had I lost control of my emotions like when I was close to you. Little upon little, I realized I was falling in love with you.
One night, I stuttered clumsily over the phrase “I've fallen in love with you.” over and over again. The Japanese sounded childish on my lips- “boku wa kimi no koto wo koi ni shimasu.” But it was only then that I made that stupid little connection that both “carp” and “love” in Japanese are “koi.”
It was like sparks ignited in my mind- silly little Hiro- the one I loved that looked like a fish out of water. My koi- my little carp. I thought I was rather clever when I started calling you that, but you never seemed to really pick up on it.
Of course, I bet you thought I was in love with Yaeko. It pained me every time I touched her or looked at her, but I feared your fascination for me would diminish if I wasn't the cardboard cut-out of a storybook hero. I guess I'm nothing but a villain to you now.
I'll show you. I'll get out somehow, and when I do, I'll let you know what a villain I am. I won't rest until all you think of is me again. I don't care how I do it, but I'll be your obsession again somehow.
It's the only thing in four hundred years I found worth living for, carp.
-*-
A/N: Well... after tonight's episode, I couldn't resist. =) Also, the bit about "koi" in Japanese being both carp and love is true. Eat your heart out, Kiro fandom ;)
by: Ame no Chikara
Rating: PG
Pairing: Adam/Hiro; Onesided
Warnings: Spoilers for End of Volume 2
Summary: Adam wonders how Hiro could have been so heartless
How could you be so heartless? You gave me the world- you showed me everything I could be, made me into who I was, and then you ripped it from me without any remorse. How could anybody be so ignorant of another person's feelings?
When it boils down to it, I only wanted to see that feeling in your eyes again. I wanted to see you enthralled with me, captivated by my every movement and worshipping my every step. I just wanted to be your world once more.
Everything you thought I was must have been built out of a lie to begin with, anyway. Every legend I ever heard about Takezo Kensei was a complete lie. I do not know what they wanted to make me out to be- I was simply human, it was you that was the God.
As my hands run up and down the inside of this coffin, I wonder if you could have even imagined a crueler fate for me. How did you not understand me, Hiro? In all of my existence, I have never met anyone that has understood me as well and yet as little as you. Looking back on that short time we spent together, I wonder if you even understood me then.
Do you actually know why I call you carp? It started as a joke at first. I was drunk as usual and thought that your puffy cheeks and wide eyes made you look like a fish. And then you took my heart. I was scared and even a little embarrassed. Never before had I lost control of my emotions like when I was close to you. Little upon little, I realized I was falling in love with you.
One night, I stuttered clumsily over the phrase “I've fallen in love with you.” over and over again. The Japanese sounded childish on my lips- “boku wa kimi no koto wo koi ni shimasu.” But it was only then that I made that stupid little connection that both “carp” and “love” in Japanese are “koi.”
It was like sparks ignited in my mind- silly little Hiro- the one I loved that looked like a fish out of water. My koi- my little carp. I thought I was rather clever when I started calling you that, but you never seemed to really pick up on it.
Of course, I bet you thought I was in love with Yaeko. It pained me every time I touched her or looked at her, but I feared your fascination for me would diminish if I wasn't the cardboard cut-out of a storybook hero. I guess I'm nothing but a villain to you now.
I'll show you. I'll get out somehow, and when I do, I'll let you know what a villain I am. I won't rest until all you think of is me again. I don't care how I do it, but I'll be your obsession again somehow.
It's the only thing in four hundred years I found worth living for, carp.
-*-
A/N: Well... after tonight's episode, I couldn't resist. =) Also, the bit about "koi" in Japanese being both carp and love is true. Eat your heart out, Kiro fandom ;)