Here it Goes

[_alovelost9_]

I really dont know if anyone ever reads thing anymore, but oh well. A lot of you guys are puzzeled as why I left everyone and became a hermit of sorts. I dealt with a lot of stuff going on in my head the summer i spent in trussville. I loved every minute of seeing everyone, but I wasnt following God at all. I was basically running away from in some sense. I was giving so much of myself to all of you guys, and i felt like I never got anything back from anyone. That tore me apart emotionally, and I could not deal with it anymore. Throughout that summer i held hardcore music, the scene, the clothes, all that stuff as an idol in my life. It got to the point where I was only close with kids who listened, eat, slept breathed hardcore music. I was sick within myself, and I did not realize it at that moment. That finally came clear to me when I was sharing with my youth group about idols and the idols in my life. God made it clear to me that I held that as an idol. Now I am hanging out with kids who dont share a lot of stuff in common with me besides their love for Jesus. I can only take so much of shows, i love them but i have to guard myself as to how many shows i go to. I love all of you guys who attend and go to shows, dont get me wrong, i love the music and the people, I just don't need to slip back into that lifestyle of shows every weekend. I hope this clears up why I do not come around anymore, I just try to keep my distance

Champ
it was good seeing some of you tonight at the show