Happy Easter.
This is taken from an entry I wrote on April 14, 2005.
"I can learn to love.. but i just don't know why there isn't anyone i'm right for, whom i can learn to understand, care, and do evreything humanly possible for. I long for such a strong feeling, of security. I want someone i can be with, yet be free at the same time. To hold hands with, and not need to have sex or do anything sexual. To look at, and know that it's not the looks i fell hard for--it's the beauty inside i couldn't resist from looking at. To understand someone, so much that i'd forgot how to understand myself. to be dedicated yet having the righteous amount of space. To love, with patience while delighting in truth. being willing to trust and endure EVERYTHiNG that follows after beginning to trust. I just want love. I want a love like this ."
You know what sucks?
I found alovelikethis, but I still fucked it up and tainted that shit hella bad.
I'm not emo; nor am I jubilent.
I'm grateful that I've learned lessons from the experiences I've gone through, regardless how hard the pain hurt.
I know what I need in life will take a while to get... but I know who I want to be with,
And given time and dedication,
I believe in myself.
I believe in him.
But most of all,
I believe in the power of destiny and truth.
And destiny only explores TRUTH.
Truth is:
The love I maintain in my heart for you will never diminish nor be replaced.
It may have been hidden,
it could have been denied.
But now.. as we used to say
"I love you, you love me..
LET IT BE KNOWN".
I have to be honest with myself,
Because that's the only way I know I can live a righteous life full of sincerity.
I've always believed that when we human beings open our hearts to those that love us
Anything is possible.
And w hen we individuals realize how true a feeling is towards one amazing human being,
We stay true to our heart and do anything it takes,
whether it be waiting all eternity, or putting our whole life into making it happen,
And if approached with honesty and treated with complete utter care,
LOVE WILL PREVAIL. love will happen. love will finally not fail.
the end.
"I can learn to love.. but i just don't know why there isn't anyone i'm right for, whom i can learn to understand, care, and do evreything humanly possible for. I long for such a strong feeling, of security. I want someone i can be with, yet be free at the same time. To hold hands with, and not need to have sex or do anything sexual. To look at, and know that it's not the looks i fell hard for--it's the beauty inside i couldn't resist from looking at. To understand someone, so much that i'd forgot how to understand myself. to be dedicated yet having the righteous amount of space. To love, with patience while delighting in truth. being willing to trust and endure EVERYTHiNG that follows after beginning to trust. I just want love. I want a love like this ."
You know what sucks?
I found alovelikethis, but I still fucked it up and tainted that shit hella bad.
I'm not emo; nor am I jubilent.
I'm grateful that I've learned lessons from the experiences I've gone through, regardless how hard the pain hurt.
I know what I need in life will take a while to get... but I know who I want to be with,
And given time and dedication,
I believe in myself.
I believe in him.
But most of all,
I believe in the power of destiny and truth.
And destiny only explores TRUTH.
Truth is:
The love I maintain in my heart for you will never diminish nor be replaced.
It may have been hidden,
it could have been denied.
But now.. as we used to say
"I love you, you love me..
LET IT BE KNOWN".
I have to be honest with myself,
Because that's the only way I know I can live a righteous life full of sincerity.
I've always believed that when we human beings open our hearts to those that love us
Anything is possible.
And w hen we individuals realize how true a feeling is towards one amazing human being,
We stay true to our heart and do anything it takes,
whether it be waiting all eternity, or putting our whole life into making it happen,
And if approached with honesty and treated with complete utter care,
LOVE WILL PREVAIL. love will happen. love will finally not fail.
the end.