go to sleep, baby. I'll be gone tomorrow.
sometimes, i fear that although i'm a studious person, i take my social and personal life too seriously. I forget that i need to just lay back, relax and stop thikning about everyone else in the world. You can call me selfish, but I call it looking out for myself. I need to maitain a healthy state of mind, seriously.
what I really want to write about is how I feel used. I've never felt so used in my life. I don't mean to point any fingers, because I must admit, i'm part to blame for this catastrophe. But damn, I have feelings too. and just because I've made a mistake with this person before, doesn't give them the right to just use me. I don't even know if I have anything good to feel right now. All I feel is regret, pain, agony and confusion. I'm so indoubtedly lost. Someone, help me. what did I do? Nevemrind, I know what I have done. But just because I couldn't feel for someone at a time in my life ,doens't mean that I intended it to be taht particular way. no one knows me and I have no one to blame but myself for that one. I know I'll get over it, just like I'v done with other boy I've loved.. so you ask why stress over this one? Because once again, this time my feelings were hurt. I'm not a china doll you can keep in a glass closet at home to look at and love, preserve and store.. then take me out to grow a relationship with when you feel like it. I know you know i'm talking to you. And of course, you know how I feel since we briefly spoke abut this the other night. I just hate how.. The table have turned, once more. Story of Trishia's life.
but aside from being myself up about this situation, I shall move on. But of course, I needed to vent and let that out. Keeping all that pent up anger and bitterness won't do me any good, of course. =)
Goodbye fucked up chapter in my life. Don't make it harder than it already is. One day you'll realize what a mistake you made.
I'll write in here later.
what I really want to write about is how I feel used. I've never felt so used in my life. I don't mean to point any fingers, because I must admit, i'm part to blame for this catastrophe. But damn, I have feelings too. and just because I've made a mistake with this person before, doesn't give them the right to just use me. I don't even know if I have anything good to feel right now. All I feel is regret, pain, agony and confusion. I'm so indoubtedly lost. Someone, help me. what did I do? Nevemrind, I know what I have done. But just because I couldn't feel for someone at a time in my life ,doens't mean that I intended it to be taht particular way. no one knows me and I have no one to blame but myself for that one. I know I'll get over it, just like I'v done with other boy I've loved.. so you ask why stress over this one? Because once again, this time my feelings were hurt. I'm not a china doll you can keep in a glass closet at home to look at and love, preserve and store.. then take me out to grow a relationship with when you feel like it. I know you know i'm talking to you. And of course, you know how I feel since we briefly spoke abut this the other night. I just hate how.. The table have turned, once more. Story of Trishia's life.
but aside from being myself up about this situation, I shall move on. But of course, I needed to vent and let that out. Keeping all that pent up anger and bitterness won't do me any good, of course. =)
Goodbye fucked up chapter in my life. Don't make it harder than it already is. One day you'll realize what a mistake you made.
I'll write in here later.