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[_almostkind]

It seems like I wait months or weeks to update this...I don't even know why. Everything has been pretty weird lately. I feel out of touch with everyone, and I think that is a lot due to my part. I don't make the effort..but I want to see people.) Nate's Grandma died yesterday and I went over and just sat around and watched tv. I just worry he drinks too much. He does. I already talked to him about it last week, and he said he wouldn't. I don't know though. I feel like such a whiny bitch girlfriend, but I just love him and I worry so much. You can't just drink away your sorrows, no matter how much you want to forget about them. I just want this relationship to work out so badly, and no matter how much you love someone..you can't be with an alcoholic. And what really makes me sad is that he admitted to doing coke in June..that just broke my heart. I was tipsy when he told me, but I almost burst into tears..and then I remember really thinking about it, and not even being able to cry. He means the world to me, but I just wish I knew I did to him too sometimes.
Tomorrow Amanda, Gillian, Amy & I are gonna go look for Halloween costumes, get food and go to the football game. Should be fun..I miss my girls.

I got in a car accident. I hate not having a car. Fuck my life.

Fuck tomorrow. I feel so negative lately. But...I think I have a reason. Whatever. Fuck my hair too. I hate you.

My dad is the biggest dick prick in the world. I hope he goes and fucks himself and his money, too.

Like I told him earlier, I'd scrape poop off the streets of Tijuana to live on my own.

Oh well, soon enough. Too bad I fucked myself over with a car.

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