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I have come to terms with the fact that every time I look forward to something, it gets ruined. Every single thing. I hate the snow so much. When it first came I was really happy about it but now I just hate it. I just feel like there is nothing to do outside anymore. I don't ski/snowboard. I used to but realized I suck and gave up. It makes me mad.
The snowball last night was fun but it seems like everyone has someone else. I need to stop with this 'needing a boyfriend to be happy' thing. I should just live life and once one comes into my life it will just make it 10 times better. It wasn't like I expected it to be at all. Stefan told me that, that is the same as how prom is. Now I'm not really excited about prom except for the whole 'getting dressed up' part.
Two weeks ago I was really happy because I had SCP one weekend, then the Snowball and Stefan's surprise party, The Early November and then Christmas. It's almost all over. This weekend was fun but it made me realize how I shouldn't over-analyze everything. Just live it out.
So, I have nothing to do today. Jack might come over and we can go get the TEN tickets or something. Kim and I were going to go to the Natick Mall to get some Christmas shopping done but our ride fell through. Lately all I have been doing is playing Spyro with Krysta.
I need some new faces and new experiences in my life. I've been dwelling on the past, I need to let go. I don't think it will ever be the same.
I NEED A JOB.
Play Station Portable
That comforter.
Tons of MAC make-up.
A new backpack because mine is a piece of shit.
And a New Year's kiss.
IF I HEAR ONE MORE PERSON SNEEZE I'M GOING TO KILL THEM.