Count down...
I do what i can wherever i end up
To keep giving my good love
And spreading it around
Cause i've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes
I've learned how to cry
And i'm better for that
There's too many things that i haven't done yet
Too many sunsets
I haven't seen
You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down
You would've thought by now
I'd have learned something
Its almost time to come home for Thanksgiving thankgoodness. I think it will be really good for me to get away from here. I am job hunting...Ive decided I'm not going to be back at that school. I need to be somewhere else, however im not telling them until I know for sure I have a new job. Which leads me to a problem. Since I am leaving and I dont want to invest much time into a school and program that I wont be at for long. Its really hard to do things outside of showing up and teaching the class. For instance the music library is awful nothing is in order and was going to re-do but at the same time why put in all my time for something I wont be using. Gosh I cacnt believe I just said that. I guess it just comes from a bunch of things that have been going on
The biggest slap in the face last week..the principal came to talk to the band because they recieved a 2 at our festival well in his congrats speech he made the statement,"you have great directors (pause) or should I say great director and staff. WOW um I looked at the other Asst. and was like last time I check there were 3 band directors at this school but apparently not. I feel like iM turning into such a bitter, unhappy person. Ugh its just really hard to bounce back and get some drive after hearing things like that from a principal.
I met a student teacher at one of the middle schools and I was talking to him and I told him I dont want up in the morning dreading going to work so I made the right choice, (we were talking about if being a music teacher was the right thing) and he made the statement thats cool but are you really happy with it or is it just comfortable and content. And the more I think about it, I think its just comforable and Im content. I have a job Im making money on my own, which is what I wanted to be doing, however, Id rather be in a different state with my own band perhaps looking into grad schools for Admin. . .
I need change I need the seasons, this sunny all the time is starting to get to me. Im so glad to be coming home for thanksgiving!!!! =)