maybe im maaaaaaad
usually the pitter patter of the rain on my skylight is a comforting sound. something that lulls me back into a soft sleep until that last minute where im already late and can rest no longer. i dont know what about it today has me so upset. i woke to my alarm 15 minutes ago, it began to pour. the sound aroused my senses so abruptly i was forced out of bed, feet to the cold, uninviting floor, to the comfort of my computer screen. it, the rain i mean, has me feeling guilty about something. i felt it while trying to fall asleep last night too. it feels like i have refused to tell someone i love them, or just denied someone all together. like im being neglectful. but this isnt the case at all. i have no idea what has me so on edge, so anxious. perhaps its just school. perhaps its the fight with james. perhaps its nothing at all.