Feb 10, 2006 23:01
Snow, has now become lame as fuck. Everyony panic's and cancelle's everything, in dear of what is NOT to come. It is 11 oclock, I have been sitting aroud since aroud 7'ish and all it has fucking done is rained. I couldn't do anything because mother was paranoid of what was to happen, and now shit did. It is a wasted night. Im not with the people I want to be with, and it is one night that I am able to do that. I'm not working, I'm not doing anything. When tomorrow night comes, I'm fucking doing something. I dont give a fuck how bad it is. Will and I and others, are fucking doing something. By the way, Yes, I am getting worked up over something I have no control over.
On the other hand. I have wondered what the rest of my life will be like. I know you can never tell, or expect any of it, but I still wonder. Today my mom started to harass me about my ACT, or SAT, in which, I have not taken either. I wonder if I will though. I dont know what I want to do. I know that I need to, but still. I want to live the rest of my life by just having fun. I like dont really want to worry about money and that shit. (Is what I'm thinking right now) I dont want to have too much, I just want to find something that I can make the perfect amount for. That would be awesome. This is my bit on life.
Now on to Valentines day...which is next week. I have never really been a fan of this particular holiday. I think that not being with someone on it, for 3 years now, might have something to do with it, but not really. It's like it is expected for you to do something, and ah, shit, I dont know. I just really dont like it that much, I guess we will see how things go this year. There is someone, but we shall see.