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I'm just begining to think that guys just like to use me for amusment, and then fuck me over. And it's getting on my last nerve. I don't understand. Is there something wrong with me? Am I to boyish, ugly, annoying, bitchy?! If anyone knows please fuckin' tell me. First Jay and I were together for a while, then he decided to cheat on me with Ellie, his wife to be as of tonight. Then James cheated on me. Am I just that easy that you guys just think you can do one thing to me and then another and think that I won't care?! Well if all you people didn't know, I have feelings just as any normal fucking person. To let all you know, I was crying, okay? CRYING I've never felt this way in my life as when Jay yelled at me and then asked Ellie to marry him. And I'm not mad, I'm so upset I could do anything to make myself feel better. I've never felt this way about a person before, ever. I hate everything and everybody right now. Jesus, who was I kidding when I actually thought Jay wanted me back? I feel like such a fucking idiot.