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i feel like an awful human being. as hard as i try to focus my energy positively i find it never being enough, i am some how always being selfish in someone's eyes and i have to apologize a thousand times over. but its never enough, never. i make mistakes, i am human. the point to keep clear is that i care, and i dont know too many humans who can say they do. i feel lost back in new jersey. even as many friends as ive rekindled or created i find myself absent minded and not living up to my potential as a human. i am one of those people who spend their days sleeping. my mind only works at night. i need to get my creativity flowing again. it will get my mind back on track.