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Things are starting to look up.. I don't feel as lost as I did before.. Not sure why.. Things aren't really looking up enough though because I haven't been going to college much recently.. I was ill last week but I had no excuse not to go in this week.. I just want to sleep all the time, not sure how to get out of this pattern..
I was thinking today and i'm still not 'OK'.. You know when people compliment you, the majority are able to take it but for some reason it's so hard for me to take in.. I feel so inadequate, I wonder if i'll ever feel good enough.. People can treat me like shit but I still put them above me and put any blame on myself, even when it's not due.. I don't understand why i'm like this.. Baffled..
I'm so happy with my friends right now, Tara & Ty are the best friends I could ask for.. I miss Sofia a lot, I won't lie, I doubt i'll ever have a friend like her, it's as though she understood everything that was going through my mind & she had the ability to make it all seem so much better.. I miss her so much =[
Here's some photos of me & ty after Tasha's houseparty.. I was mash up, very very drunk, it was 7 o'clock last Sunday morning.. Me & Ty were on Oxford Street, ate McDs & wandered down to Waterloo.. Anyway.. Here's the pics..
I was thinking today and i'm still not 'OK'.. You know when people compliment you, the majority are able to take it but for some reason it's so hard for me to take in.. I feel so inadequate, I wonder if i'll ever feel good enough.. People can treat me like shit but I still put them above me and put any blame on myself, even when it's not due.. I don't understand why i'm like this.. Baffled..
I'm so happy with my friends right now, Tara & Ty are the best friends I could ask for.. I miss Sofia a lot, I won't lie, I doubt i'll ever have a friend like her, it's as though she understood everything that was going through my mind & she had the ability to make it all seem so much better.. I miss her so much =[
Here's some photos of me & ty after Tasha's houseparty.. I was mash up, very very drunk, it was 7 o'clock last Sunday morning.. Me & Ty were on Oxford Street, ate McDs & wandered down to Waterloo.. Anyway.. Here's the pics..