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i sorta want to like reverse time and go back to the old me.i seemed happier and nicer then and i didnt have "friends" that hated me and like wanted me to like uh..whutever//some people are amazing and they are the ones that are keeping me from going crazy<3 and i love all of you..i have lost touch with a few lovley people that cared about me and whenever i was around with those people i was actaully me..years gone by fast and some of it i have loved and some i have not. i sorta wish it was still the beggining not any fights yet and it wuldnt be so hard for me to go back to the "old" me. like i dont even know if people knew who i was which is sorta freaky..but those people that have seen me like change like in the past years wow..like slap mee in the face and our like who are you..and thats freaky cause part of me is like this is who i am now and im happy for the most part..and some of the time im just like who are you abby. UH.whatever i guess thats just a thrill of growing up? BUT all i can remember when i was older was when boys had cooties and when goodbyes meant till tomorrow and when playing outside with my neighbors was something i looked forward too when i loved running from boys and swing on the swings..but the thing i remember most is WANTING TO GROW UP. i hate when i want something so bad and when i finally get it i wish i never had it and i wish i was still wishing for it. nobody really knwoz the real me of all my friends maybe 30R4 like i dont know sometimes i wish i didnt turn out the way i had. SO sick of the mean stares and the gossip and the fight..everything used to be so much fun and day by day nothing seems to change and then when i look back everything is different. friends have come and left and i mean i guess thats a chapter in life..and "you dont know what you`ve got till its gone" < I SWEAR THAT HAS MEANT SO MUCH TO ME LATLEY. when LAURA KRINSKY & ALI FIRSTEN were my bestfriendsforever both of them and me were unseperable. the bus seats 3 to a seat HA and the lessons i learned in between i seriously miss kindergarten boys were silly and girls wore their hair in pig tails and ponys to the side and makeup was for big girls. its so weird..i feel like time flew by and i couldnt wait to get it over with while it was happening but then once i look back i want to hurt myself for not living it up and having fun while i had the chance to be me...I LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH AND I LOVE MEETING NEW PEOPLE AND LAUGHING AND HAVING FUN. but sometimes it does get annoying worrying about having to please everyone, i seriously look at myself and dont even get it like what i see its hard to explain but its not me./middle school is overated and boys are too and drama is too and girls jeliously also. and i know i will look back and be like i was happy in middle school i loved every second of it..and most of the time i have loved growing up and meeting people..but i guess you never see the bad parts when you look back but thats what gets us from one laugh to another.

i loove all of you guys seriously and if anyone feels the same way or wants to talk im hear and i could use anyone<3. its not a big deal i just need to let stuff out..thankss for reading it cuties.ox psss.sorry for the complaint.

anoymous comments in mine or other poeples ljs are really annoying you guys
have to stopp letting other people down its not funny or nice and if you
feeel so strongly bad about someone tell them dont try to make them depressed
and when poeple say w.e i dont care stupid anoymous i know i care when you people
do that..i just try and cover it up.so stop ..its seriously disgusting

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