Fuck it....
Well, it would appear I'm going to have to go back and do some modelling again for a while. I really need some way of paying the bills with more left over than just scraping through and I need extra money to fund other stuff, ie: my clothing label. Unfortunatley talent isn't enough to make it in the fashion industry, you really need at least enough money to cover your basic costs of putting your stuff out there and my priorities lie with feeding my child and then myself first which doesn't leave much left to fund the label. My attempt at trying to find part time work have so far been unsuccessful. Maybe I should finally come to the realisation that I'm really just not a people person especially when it comes to dealing with the general retail customer.
It would seem I don't really have a hell of a lot of choice but to do some modelling again especially since even though child support went up by $220 a month it's practically negated by the fact that my family payments have now dropped by $200 a month because of this. $20 extra....goodie :/ With Monkey Boy starting school next year there's going to be uniforms and books and lots of other stuff I probably haven't even considered yet so I think this is just going to have to happen.
At least on the bright side I have had 8 offers for modelling work in the past 4 days. A couple of which are magazines, one overseas and one coffee table book. Hopefully this means I'll be able to be quite picky about the work that I take instead of just resorting to taking anything that's offering cash. I don't know if I actually want to take any of these offers yet, I'll have to really look into them. The other problem will be finding someone who's trustworthy and comfortable with coming with me to at least some of the weekday shoots with photographers I haven't worked with before. So any suggestions would be appreciated.
Having said all that, I'd still obviously prefer to make the main chunk of my income through fashion. So if anyone is looking for things to be made, especially corsets and the like, now would be the time to come forward, wave your hands around madley in the air, jump up and down and yell "Hey! Over here! I'm in need of cool new clothes!". If it's a high priced item I'm willing to make arangments for payment plans or laybys.
I spent so long building up my self esteem and learning to completely accept myself, the way I am, uncensored and not basing my opinion of my self on a standardized ideal of beauty and now I'm going back to that pitiful industry. Funny the the path life leads you on sometimes....
Ick! Modelling really is just whoring for photo's isn't it? :/
It would seem I don't really have a hell of a lot of choice but to do some modelling again especially since even though child support went up by $220 a month it's practically negated by the fact that my family payments have now dropped by $200 a month because of this. $20 extra....goodie :/ With Monkey Boy starting school next year there's going to be uniforms and books and lots of other stuff I probably haven't even considered yet so I think this is just going to have to happen.
At least on the bright side I have had 8 offers for modelling work in the past 4 days. A couple of which are magazines, one overseas and one coffee table book. Hopefully this means I'll be able to be quite picky about the work that I take instead of just resorting to taking anything that's offering cash. I don't know if I actually want to take any of these offers yet, I'll have to really look into them. The other problem will be finding someone who's trustworthy and comfortable with coming with me to at least some of the weekday shoots with photographers I haven't worked with before. So any suggestions would be appreciated.
Having said all that, I'd still obviously prefer to make the main chunk of my income through fashion. So if anyone is looking for things to be made, especially corsets and the like, now would be the time to come forward, wave your hands around madley in the air, jump up and down and yell "Hey! Over here! I'm in need of cool new clothes!". If it's a high priced item I'm willing to make arangments for payment plans or laybys.
I spent so long building up my self esteem and learning to completely accept myself, the way I am, uncensored and not basing my opinion of my self on a standardized ideal of beauty and now I'm going back to that pitiful industry. Funny the the path life leads you on sometimes....
Ick! Modelling really is just whoring for photo's isn't it? :/