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Tonight, i sat home .. and did nothing. This is the first Friday night that i havent gone out in weeks. So lets take a moment and reflect, something ive been doing a lot of lately. This time last year, i would be at sessionz with tara and everybody. I had some great times there. It was something new to do, and even though i wanted to leave the first time i went, every week after that i wanted to go back. I had so much fun, and i miss the fact that at that time, everybody was so close, such good friends. And now .. everything is so different. Me and tara arent best friends anymore, and a lot of those "friends" are separated.I really do miss being best friends with tara, and i dont talk about this much. I think what bothers me the most is how it happened, and i even think that there were some misunderstandings. When she started going out with Tom, It just seemed as though she completely forgot about me and our friendship. So i knew that i needed to spend time with my other friends. It had nothing to do with me being jealous, or not liking them. It happened quickly, i mean, people go different ways. Im happy that we are still friends, even if we arent as close as we were. And on the same note i have to think of this year, and all the great things i have been experiencing with my friends now. Granted, at the begining of 9th grade .. well i dont want to be that person, or go through that again, but its different now. I have been thinking about all this lately, it all started when i read a note from tara, and then i found all of my old notes from last year, from dustin and stuff. I dont want to grow up, i like it now, i just want more time. But then, i have a lot to look forward to. I just want to find a balance, i miss some things from last year, and i would be lost without a lot of the things i have now. What can you do .. things change. We grow up, and apart. And i swear, if anybody laughs at me for what i said in here, ill cry.