..catching up.
So much has happened...
I think everyone basically knows.
It sucks to let go of something that meant so much to you. So why do you do it? What makes someone let go of such a good thing. I'm not quite sure myself. I woke up and I just knew I had to be alone. Just me. Figure out who I am without a guy by myside. I feel horrible. Like a disgusting piece of roadkill that no one tries to avoid.
I'm sorry I hurt you, honestly I never ever wanted to. I love you. I always will, you can't just stop loving after almost 4 years. I'm writing this so maybe he'll understand, I don't blame him for being completely confused. I abandoned him, and it must suck....but I don't know what else to say except that i need to do this for myself. I want to remain close with you...I want to one day possibly look back on this and just realize it's all we needed to finally be able to settle down later.
I need you to know...I will always care. And if you ever need me, i'll be here, but don't be mad if i don't support you like i used to. I need to be strong in this.
Well on another subject...
haircut tomorrow, pretty excited, gonna be shorter and i'm getting long bangs!! I haven't had bangs in so long... so to celebrate the night before the haircut I took pictures....
(well only 2)
and i just look disgusting in this last one...
ewwwww.
I think everyone basically knows.
It sucks to let go of something that meant so much to you. So why do you do it? What makes someone let go of such a good thing. I'm not quite sure myself. I woke up and I just knew I had to be alone. Just me. Figure out who I am without a guy by myside. I feel horrible. Like a disgusting piece of roadkill that no one tries to avoid.
I'm sorry I hurt you, honestly I never ever wanted to. I love you. I always will, you can't just stop loving after almost 4 years. I'm writing this so maybe he'll understand, I don't blame him for being completely confused. I abandoned him, and it must suck....but I don't know what else to say except that i need to do this for myself. I want to remain close with you...I want to one day possibly look back on this and just realize it's all we needed to finally be able to settle down later.
I need you to know...I will always care. And if you ever need me, i'll be here, but don't be mad if i don't support you like i used to. I need to be strong in this.
Well on another subject...
haircut tomorrow, pretty excited, gonna be shorter and i'm getting long bangs!! I haven't had bangs in so long... so to celebrate the night before the haircut I took pictures....
(well only 2)
and i just look disgusting in this last one...
ewwwww.