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The larval stage of a very sobering thought has hatched and is proceeding to eat my brain.
The genesis of my entire interest in music comes from the fact that in 4th grade, when i happened to pick up a clarinet and join band, I also happened to be the best 4th grade player. I thought that music was one area where I was actually and truly satisfied with second-best, especially after my more-than-humbling tutoring experience(s). But no, my megalomaniac nature was always there. It was just hidden, placated by the fact that most of the people whom I actually know personally and are better than me are adults. This is quite frustrating.
The genesis of my entire interest in music comes from the fact that in 4th grade, when i happened to pick up a clarinet and join band, I also happened to be the best 4th grade player. I thought that music was one area where I was actually and truly satisfied with second-best, especially after my more-than-humbling tutoring experience(s). But no, my megalomaniac nature was always there. It was just hidden, placated by the fact that most of the people whom I actually know personally and are better than me are adults. This is quite frustrating.