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Just Once, I Dare You To Be There For Me.
i hate the fact that you never seem to care. you're never there. you only IM me when you need something. and that you worry too much trying to make the girl thats with you into a girl they cant be. i don't like that every time i meet a guy, i compare them to you. and i contradict myself when i tell you to stop trying to compare every girl. and i hate that i cant even hate you. and that i cant even get over you.. after everything. sooo. i don't know what to do. and you don't know how you feel. and i don't want to be the one to nag you. and i don't like that you don't open up to me just because you don't love me, you told me you loved me before. and now all of a sudden you don't. so please don't tell me things you don't mean. it gives a girl too much hope and i thought you would know that, because when i said it, i meant it. so... i think it'd be best.. if we just left it alone. cuz i can't sit here waitin for you to make a decision. and i can't take it, if the same thing happened to me last time, happened this time. i know you have a lot of things goin on, and you don't want to hear this but it's too much for me. im not unbreakable, i will have get pissed/sad/etc, because it is too much stress and you may think im tripping over nothing but this is what i was talkin about when i said your feelings will build up on you. so i'm letting you know. right here right now. so that way, i dont have to worry about a response from you. and just so you know. i never felt that way about anyone else before. and i could never forget you. and i'm sorry for putting all of this on you. it just built all up.
i hate the fact that you never seem to care. you're never there. you only IM me when you need something. and that you worry too much trying to make the girl thats with you into a girl they cant be. i don't like that every time i meet a guy, i compare them to you. and i contradict myself when i tell you to stop trying to compare every girl. and i hate that i cant even hate you. and that i cant even get over you.. after everything. sooo. i don't know what to do. and you don't know how you feel. and i don't want to be the one to nag you. and i don't like that you don't open up to me just because you don't love me, you told me you loved me before. and now all of a sudden you don't. so please don't tell me things you don't mean. it gives a girl too much hope and i thought you would know that, because when i said it, i meant it. so... i think it'd be best.. if we just left it alone. cuz i can't sit here waitin for you to make a decision. and i can't take it, if the same thing happened to me last time, happened this time. i know you have a lot of things goin on, and you don't want to hear this but it's too much for me. im not unbreakable, i will have get pissed/sad/etc, because it is too much stress and you may think im tripping over nothing but this is what i was talkin about when i said your feelings will build up on you. so i'm letting you know. right here right now. so that way, i dont have to worry about a response from you. and just so you know. i never felt that way about anyone else before. and i could never forget you. and i'm sorry for putting all of this on you. it just built all up.