and im sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here

[__xomanda]

this hurts sooo fuckkin much.

just when i felt like im getting there, everything has been ripped away from my hands. and now im back right where i started and i dont like it here.i dont wanna be here.

but im gonna be okay. i have to be okay. i cannot not be okay. (yes double negatives were needed here)