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whatever, i fucking feel like shit. 1/2 becasue of the reason that dilan's in trouble and has no car for a while, so i don't know when i'll see him next, so of course, i flipped out cuz i wanted to see him, but know that i can't. and then i got this crazy i dea in my fucked up head that maybe his rents will tell him that he can't go oyut with me anymore and that he'd go through with it. well, that ended up not being true.
then knowing and htinking aobut all that made me realize how much i love him and i guess need him? and this depressed me cuz then i think i'm just reliving the last tiem we went out. for crying out loud. i feel like such ass that i want to sleep these days away and die. there really is no true reason for why i should feel this depressed, i'm just severly overreacting, but i can't get over it. i hate that i always need reassurance because i cant listen to myself.
how 'bout we get sare some pills that really work, cuz im goin crazy here.
soooooo weak.
then knowing and htinking aobut all that made me realize how much i love him and i guess need him? and this depressed me cuz then i think i'm just reliving the last tiem we went out. for crying out loud. i feel like such ass that i want to sleep these days away and die. there really is no true reason for why i should feel this depressed, i'm just severly overreacting, but i can't get over it. i hate that i always need reassurance because i cant listen to myself.
how 'bout we get sare some pills that really work, cuz im goin crazy here.
soooooo weak.