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I remember the first guy I ever fell in love with. I think about how deep and true that love is. How nothing is like that first love. You will give your everything to that person, your heart and your soul. Everyone always says, nothing is like your fist love. Nothing. But I remember it .Sometimes I still feel it. I feel it and it's so intense. it makes me think of you. and how much you mean to me. You are beautiful. You are everything I aspire to be. I have so much to offer this world, and I owe everything I have to who you are, and who you have taught me to be. I hope one day, if I ever have kids, they will look back at their mom and be inspired. They will look back and realize, there is always something worth fighting for. One day, karma will come back, and life will turn around. There isnt a single second I don't miss you. A second doesn't go by where I don't feel for you. Wish I could take some of that heartache away from you. But I know, this is useless. So here I am, drunk, posting this online, because I really don't mind who reads this. I don't mind who knows I feel empty without you. I feel half alive, half human without you. You are my spirit. You are beautiful. You are everything to me. You will alwasy encourage me to be the best. Even if you can't say it, I believe in you. I will believe in me because you do. You always will. Just like my first love. You will always believe in me. One day, I hope I can believe in me too.