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i have realized i am bi-polar/psycho.
talk about wanting to punch someone in the face..
..if only she arrived thirty minutes earlier.
why am i doing this?
i'm kidding myself, i know why.
i can explain it throughly on here..but when we are face-to-face,
i can't.
i feel like i am changing
i am too dependent on you
i love you too much
i care about every word you say
i want to be the best for you
i have to disagree to make me feel in power
i want you to be in control
but i want to have control
i'm falling so deep
its been six weeks today
-sighs-
a few more days and you will be my longest.
why am i so excited but so nervous?
gah this week has been such a test
why did i even make it rough for us?
today will be better.
i refuse to let something ruin it.
you are right i am pushing you away.
i am protecting myself.
i need you more than you will ever know.
this is what is scaring me.
i'm in love with you.
talk about wanting to punch someone in the face..
..if only she arrived thirty minutes earlier.
why am i doing this?
i'm kidding myself, i know why.
i can explain it throughly on here..but when we are face-to-face,
i can't.
i feel like i am changing
i am too dependent on you
i love you too much
i care about every word you say
i want to be the best for you
i have to disagree to make me feel in power
i want you to be in control
but i want to have control
i'm falling so deep
its been six weeks today
-sighs-
a few more days and you will be my longest.
why am i so excited but so nervous?
gah this week has been such a test
why did i even make it rough for us?
today will be better.
i refuse to let something ruin it.
you are right i am pushing you away.
i am protecting myself.
i need you more than you will ever know.
this is what is scaring me.
i'm in love with you.