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i just had the worst night last

getting a call saying two of your friends got in to a car accident,
screaming she wont wake up
is the most terrifying thing to hear.

i should have stopped them.

i could have stopped them
i feel like its partyly my fault that i let them leave
this is the worst i have felt in a long time.
and all i wanna do is sit in bed all day.
and cry.
the two girls are fine
amanda was rushed in an ambulance,
and ciara had a concusion.

on a lighter note,
im still with josh.
things are getting better.
i really do care about him.
i guess we will have to see how this is going to go.