Need You Now
Title: Need You Now
Pairing Nikki/Bam Implied/Forme Ville Valo/Bam Margera
Ratin PG-13
Summary: Wandering hands, teasing touches, hidden affections behind a closed door away from the cameras away from the stardom, away from everyone. He can remember the hot press of lips against his skin, the pink bites against tattooed flesh. The bruises that lasted for days, the marks that he had fallen in love with. The person he had fallen in love with. Jade eyes, fair rich chocolate looks, white snow like skin. Hushed words, promises that had so much meaning now, but they mean nothing now.
A/N I don’t care if you don’t like Bam/Ville, you don’t like the drabble don’t read it. Personality I’m writing this, because people have pissed me off enough in the Ville & Bam tag on tumblr. It’s really immature blaming Bam for the fact that him and Ville don’t talk, and annoying, I think Ville had more to do with it, not to mention he drinks now again away. So.. yeah, not going to voice anymore, here’s the drabble to go with this..
Another Note: Based Off Bam’s recent interview, and this is a sorta what if he saw HIM after this, this is fiction, as alway Most of this was written because people were being immature idiots on tumblr and and I needed a vent.
Interview:
Blue eyes stared off into space, his eyes clear as the day looking up at the starlit sky. There was a time were standing in line like this to go to
a H.I.M show would have brought him joy, and made him happy but things had changed. His fingers were wrapped around Nikki’s waist holding her close in the cold weather. Before this he had been in Australia doing his own promo work for his band, and his brothers. He kept Nikki close, standing in the line for the concert talking to her, he seemed almost jittery and nervous. “I feel like I shouldn’t have come here.” The skater tells Nikki giving her a soft kiss on the mouth, his nerves are a mess of things.
“Babe, you’re fine. He won’t notice you. You’ll be okay.” Nikki tells him, her voice soft. She pecks the side of the skater’s check, lacing her fingers with his free hand.
“I hope you’re right.” The skater tells her back and they file inside
~
Nikki is pressed up against him, swaying softly to the music, his fingers around her waist as he listens. The music is haunting and it brings memories behind his eyes as he hears the familiar sing, that was once his friend, talking and singing onstage.By the time Sacrament plays, Bam feels his vision blur a little feeling hot tears for some reason. He doesn’t understand why he’s crying.
Memories flash behind his eyes of the shooting of The Sacrament video.
Wandering hands, teasing touches, hidden affections behind a closed door away from the cameras away from the stardom, away from everyone. He can remember the hot press of lips against his skin, the pink bites against tattooed flesh. The bruises that lasted for days, the marks that he had fallen in love with. The person he had fallen in love with. Jade eyes, fair rich chocolate looks, white snow like skin. Hushed words, promises that had so much meaning now, but they mean nothing now.
“I love you.” Bam says into Nikki’s ear trying to keep his voice from cracking and hiding his tears. God, his heart feels torn into two, he loves her so much, but the flicker of an old flame is still there. He can still remember everything he loved, adored about the man on stage. She leans up and kisses him back, they’re close enough to the stage that someone could notice them, if they saw them by chance. Bam loses himself in the kiss with her, tears dripping down his tanned face, eyes laced with a hurt that’s hidden by affection for Nikki
Jade eyes sweep once over the crowd of people, and his eyes fall upon the couple, not at first realizing who it is. The skater’s eyes see him looking over when he parts the kiss from Nikki, their eyes locking once briefly. It burns under his skin, and makes him shake. “Baby, you okay?” Nikki whispers to Bam, her fingers still laced with his.
“Yeah, I’m just so happy to be here with you.” Bam lies to her, wetness on his cheeks. Not that the singer can tell by looking at him, his fingers almost go to wrap around the heartgram necklace around his neck on the string. The rest of the show he feels numb, but Nikki being near him makes up for things. Nikki heads back to the hotel later, says she’s getting some sleep, she knows Bam likes to party a bit more than her, and he kisses her goodbye watching her leave. The ring on his finger heavy from here
Bam lights a smoke after she leaves outside, his eyes staring up at the sky, he could care less about the cold. The jade eyes are haunting his memory, he hates thinking about them. He hates the fact he misses the singer, misses talking to him, being who they used to be. He watches the smoke trail upwards, and god he needs to stop thinking about the singer. He needs to get him out of his mind.
“You always did come back.” Bam freezes under his skin, hearing his voice, the one that’s haunted his memories so long.
Bam can’t meet him in the eyes. He can’t there’s so many things he wants to do, he wants to hit him, kiss him, and cry all at the same time. He exhales another drag of a smoke. “Who said I came back for you.” Bam says to him his voice sounding bitter. God, he still admires him so much, he still loves him, even though he has stopped admitting it outloud to him.
“You’re still the same old you.” The Finn breathes out, looking at him with emerald eyes.
“People change, you did. So did I.” Bam snaps back at him. He doesn’t will himself to say his name, he can’t he just can’t.
“Bambi are you really going to act like this after all this time?” He asks the skater.
“I tried to fix things, it wasn’t my fault. It wa your .” Bam grits out exhaling another smoke.
“Matter of opinion, one would say.” He says back almost sounding bitter.
“I didn’t come here to start things. I came here to finish them.” Bam says to the singer, it’s like an open wound, he wants to run, he wants to hide. ”You’ve done enough to me.” Bam lets the words escape his mouth, and they sound hurt, more hurt than he was when Ryan died
“You’re still hung up over that? They’re just videos Bambi.” The Finn says to him.
“That I irecte .” Bam spits out, he doesn’t want to hear about this, not again. “Villa, I admired you, adored you, hell I even loved you at one time, but you’ve changed. You aren’t you anymore.” Bam says feeling tears form at his eyes again.
“People change. Bam. Grow up.” Ville says to the skater, his emerald eyes looking into blue
“I have.” Bam spits out, Ville has no idea what the last few years have been like since Dunn died for him. “Go fuck yourself.” Bam adds, not meeting him in the eyes. “You ended everything not me, so stop making me look like the bad pers-&ldquo
“That’s rich, you’re the one that drinks-“
“I’m not stupid, Ville. You drink again, I’ve seen that interview. You didn’t stop, you tried and it didn’t wor-
“Shut up.” Ville hisses though his teeth.
“Why because I’m right? You’re nothing but a child. Losing your temper when things don’t go your way.” Bam says back.
“I said shut-“
“I heard what you said, I chose to ignore it. Clearly, I thought you had become a better person. I wa wrong.” Bam spits out and color drains from Ville’s face.
“How can you say tha-“
“Yo know why.” There’s nothing left to say after that, and Bam’s fingers slowly undo his heartagram necklace, without meeting emerald eyes, and toss it back to him, his eyes expressionless, and he can feel himself want to break. It was a mistake coming here. He just wants to go back to Nikki where he’s loved and feels safe
“Bam I..”
“If you’re going to confess your feelings now, it’s too late. I moved on.” Bam turns on his heel not even looking at the necklace anymore.
“I loved you.” Ville breathes, out and the pain in the voice is heartbreaking, it makes Bam’s heart throb. Ville’s right beside him, he leans up and kisses the skater, Bam can feel the heat, the pleasure, the passion, the pain everythin .The skater pushes him away though, after the kiss, tears on his face as he does so
“I don’t anymore.” And with those last few words, it breaks Bam, he feels the tears trickle down his face as he turns away, and goes back to Nikki holding her in his arms like she’s air to him. And he tries to forgot everything that happened that night as he kisses her, and is loved by her in his arms.
He hates to admit, he’s always going to miss him, even though they’ve gone there separate ways.
Pairing Nikki/Bam Implied/Forme Ville Valo/Bam Margera
Ratin PG-13
Summary: Wandering hands, teasing touches, hidden affections behind a closed door away from the cameras away from the stardom, away from everyone. He can remember the hot press of lips against his skin, the pink bites against tattooed flesh. The bruises that lasted for days, the marks that he had fallen in love with. The person he had fallen in love with. Jade eyes, fair rich chocolate looks, white snow like skin. Hushed words, promises that had so much meaning now, but they mean nothing now.
A/N I don’t care if you don’t like Bam/Ville, you don’t like the drabble don’t read it. Personality I’m writing this, because people have pissed me off enough in the Ville & Bam tag on tumblr. It’s really immature blaming Bam for the fact that him and Ville don’t talk, and annoying, I think Ville had more to do with it, not to mention he drinks now again away. So.. yeah, not going to voice anymore, here’s the drabble to go with this..
Another Note: Based Off Bam’s recent interview, and this is a sorta what if he saw HIM after this, this is fiction, as alway Most of this was written because people were being immature idiots on tumblr and and I needed a vent.
Interview:
Click to viewBlue eyes stared off into space, his eyes clear as the day looking up at the starlit sky. There was a time were standing in line like this to go to
a H.I.M show would have brought him joy, and made him happy but things had changed. His fingers were wrapped around Nikki’s waist holding her close in the cold weather. Before this he had been in Australia doing his own promo work for his band, and his brothers. He kept Nikki close, standing in the line for the concert talking to her, he seemed almost jittery and nervous. “I feel like I shouldn’t have come here.” The skater tells Nikki giving her a soft kiss on the mouth, his nerves are a mess of things.
“Babe, you’re fine. He won’t notice you. You’ll be okay.” Nikki tells him, her voice soft. She pecks the side of the skater’s check, lacing her fingers with his free hand.
“I hope you’re right.” The skater tells her back and they file inside
~
Nikki is pressed up against him, swaying softly to the music, his fingers around her waist as he listens. The music is haunting and it brings memories behind his eyes as he hears the familiar sing, that was once his friend, talking and singing onstage.By the time Sacrament plays, Bam feels his vision blur a little feeling hot tears for some reason. He doesn’t understand why he’s crying.
Memories flash behind his eyes of the shooting of The Sacrament video.
Wandering hands, teasing touches, hidden affections behind a closed door away from the cameras away from the stardom, away from everyone. He can remember the hot press of lips against his skin, the pink bites against tattooed flesh. The bruises that lasted for days, the marks that he had fallen in love with. The person he had fallen in love with. Jade eyes, fair rich chocolate looks, white snow like skin. Hushed words, promises that had so much meaning now, but they mean nothing now.
“I love you.” Bam says into Nikki’s ear trying to keep his voice from cracking and hiding his tears. God, his heart feels torn into two, he loves her so much, but the flicker of an old flame is still there. He can still remember everything he loved, adored about the man on stage. She leans up and kisses him back, they’re close enough to the stage that someone could notice them, if they saw them by chance. Bam loses himself in the kiss with her, tears dripping down his tanned face, eyes laced with a hurt that’s hidden by affection for Nikki
Jade eyes sweep once over the crowd of people, and his eyes fall upon the couple, not at first realizing who it is. The skater’s eyes see him looking over when he parts the kiss from Nikki, their eyes locking once briefly. It burns under his skin, and makes him shake. “Baby, you okay?” Nikki whispers to Bam, her fingers still laced with his.
“Yeah, I’m just so happy to be here with you.” Bam lies to her, wetness on his cheeks. Not that the singer can tell by looking at him, his fingers almost go to wrap around the heartgram necklace around his neck on the string. The rest of the show he feels numb, but Nikki being near him makes up for things. Nikki heads back to the hotel later, says she’s getting some sleep, she knows Bam likes to party a bit more than her, and he kisses her goodbye watching her leave. The ring on his finger heavy from here
Bam lights a smoke after she leaves outside, his eyes staring up at the sky, he could care less about the cold. The jade eyes are haunting his memory, he hates thinking about them. He hates the fact he misses the singer, misses talking to him, being who they used to be. He watches the smoke trail upwards, and god he needs to stop thinking about the singer. He needs to get him out of his mind.
“You always did come back.” Bam freezes under his skin, hearing his voice, the one that’s haunted his memories so long.
Bam can’t meet him in the eyes. He can’t there’s so many things he wants to do, he wants to hit him, kiss him, and cry all at the same time. He exhales another drag of a smoke. “Who said I came back for you.” Bam says to him his voice sounding bitter. God, he still admires him so much, he still loves him, even though he has stopped admitting it outloud to him.
“You’re still the same old you.” The Finn breathes out, looking at him with emerald eyes.
“People change, you did. So did I.” Bam snaps back at him. He doesn’t will himself to say his name, he can’t he just can’t.
“Bambi are you really going to act like this after all this time?” He asks the skater.
“I tried to fix things, it wasn’t my fault. It wa your .” Bam grits out exhaling another smoke.
“Matter of opinion, one would say.” He says back almost sounding bitter.
“I didn’t come here to start things. I came here to finish them.” Bam says to the singer, it’s like an open wound, he wants to run, he wants to hide. ”You’ve done enough to me.” Bam lets the words escape his mouth, and they sound hurt, more hurt than he was when Ryan died
“You’re still hung up over that? They’re just videos Bambi.” The Finn says to him.
“That I irecte .” Bam spits out, he doesn’t want to hear about this, not again. “Villa, I admired you, adored you, hell I even loved you at one time, but you’ve changed. You aren’t you anymore.” Bam says feeling tears form at his eyes again.
“People change. Bam. Grow up.” Ville says to the skater, his emerald eyes looking into blue
“I have.” Bam spits out, Ville has no idea what the last few years have been like since Dunn died for him. “Go fuck yourself.” Bam adds, not meeting him in the eyes. “You ended everything not me, so stop making me look like the bad pers-&ldquo
“That’s rich, you’re the one that drinks-“
“I’m not stupid, Ville. You drink again, I’ve seen that interview. You didn’t stop, you tried and it didn’t wor-
“Shut up.” Ville hisses though his teeth.
“Why because I’m right? You’re nothing but a child. Losing your temper when things don’t go your way.” Bam says back.
“I said shut-“
“I heard what you said, I chose to ignore it. Clearly, I thought you had become a better person. I wa wrong.” Bam spits out and color drains from Ville’s face.
“How can you say tha-“
“Yo know why.” There’s nothing left to say after that, and Bam’s fingers slowly undo his heartagram necklace, without meeting emerald eyes, and toss it back to him, his eyes expressionless, and he can feel himself want to break. It was a mistake coming here. He just wants to go back to Nikki where he’s loved and feels safe
“Bam I..”
“If you’re going to confess your feelings now, it’s too late. I moved on.” Bam turns on his heel not even looking at the necklace anymore.
“I loved you.” Ville breathes, out and the pain in the voice is heartbreaking, it makes Bam’s heart throb. Ville’s right beside him, he leans up and kisses the skater, Bam can feel the heat, the pleasure, the passion, the pain everythin .The skater pushes him away though, after the kiss, tears on his face as he does so
“I don’t anymore.” And with those last few words, it breaks Bam, he feels the tears trickle down his face as he turns away, and goes back to Nikki holding her in his arms like she’s air to him. And he tries to forgot everything that happened that night as he kisses her, and is loved by her in his arms.
He hates to admit, he’s always going to miss him, even though they’ve gone there separate ways.