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Chapter 4
With Ville gone and almost everyone in the house mad at me, I decided to go with Jess to pick up Chad and Deron from their hotel.
“Where’d Ville go this morning?” asked Jess. Just thinking about Ville made me want to scream and cry all at the same time.
“He didn’t go back to Finland did he?” Jess seemed more concerned then I was. Maybe he knew I had feelings for Ville.
“No, he didn’t. Dunn told me he went to a hotel,” Ville had called him an hour after he left so no one worried about him.
“Are you going to go talk to him?” Jess was really concerned about this. I know what you’re thinking, “Aw! He’s looking out for his little brother!” It’s fucking annoying. I knew Jess had suspicions about me liking Ville.
Chad and Deron were certainly excited to see us. They were full of stories to tell us about what happened at the party after me, Jenn, Jess, Ville, Dunn, and Raab left.
All the stories were basically the same, I learned to tune them out. I knew exactly when to laugh and when to say “What the fuck?”
“Bam, are you ok?” Chad’s voice snapped me back into reality. What happened? Did I miss a laughing cue?
“Yah, I’m fine. Why?” I asked. Chad just shook his head and continued his story on some twins who were at the after party.
“Did you see Bam-Bam kiss Valo?” Jess asked. How embarrasing. Deron nodded, Chad just put on his headphones.
“You and Ville seem really close Bam,” Deron smiled. Great, now he suspected something. I figured I might as well just tell them how I felt. I trusted them.
“Ok you guys, don’t tell anyone, but…I like Ville,” I said that last part so quickly, I wasn’t sure they’d heard me.
“Of course you like Ville. He’s your best friend,” Deron laughed.
“He means as more then a friend dipshit!” Jess said. Thank god Jess said it, because I didn’t want to explain it to Deron.
As we pulled up to the house, I saw Ville outside talking to Dunn. I didn’t even wait for Jess to park the car, I jumped out and ran over to Ville.
“Ville, I need to talk to you,” I said, out of breath. I didn’t even wait for him to say anything, I dragged him up to my room.
As I shut the door, Ville smiled.
“I’m sorry I yelled at you,” I said. I threw my arms around him. I expected Ville to say something, but he just kissed me and pushed me onto the bed.
Oh yes, things were definetely getting hot…
Chapter 5
Ok, so things were getting steamy with me and Ville in my bedroom.
When he pushed me onto the bed, I didn’t know what to do. I just let him kiss me wherever he wanted to. Again, I know what you’re thinking, “Kiss him Bam!”
Unfortunately, I was so nervous I could hardly breathe. Before things got very x-rated, which I was dreading actually, there was a knock on the door. Ville jumped off me and opened the door. Jess and Chad were standing there. Jess laughed when he saw me on the bed.
“Are we…interrupting something?” Chad smiled. Ok, good, he had been informed about the situation with Ville.
“No, not at all. Nothing we can’t finish later,” Ville seemed so confident. It made me feel so empty and weak.
“Ok, Bam, Ape wants to see you in he kitchen,” Jess frowned. My face drained of all color. Oh, shit. Ape knew something. Who would’ve told her? Jess? No. Maybe Jenn.
I walked down to the kitchen slowly to meet my doom. Ape was sitting at the table, she saw me and motioned me to sit down across from her.
I knew she’d be pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be after finding out their son is gay? No, I wasn’t gay. Was I? Maybe I was bi.
“Bam, I just want you to know I’m happy for you…” she didn’t look happy, she looked hurt.
“No you’re not. Tell me what’s wrong.” I said that with such confidence, how did I know she was talking about me and my sexuality?
“I know about you and Ville. And I know this is your house too, but I can’t live like this Bam, all the fights you get into with everyone. Especially what happened yesterday,” now I could tell she was seriously pissed at me.
“Well what do you want me to do?” I practically screamed at her.
“Get out of the house for a little bit. Explore the world. Go find yourself.” Her face softened. She was going to cry.
She wasn’t really mad at me, she was only concerned. Her advice wasn’t bad at all. Because of my newly discovered sexuality, I should go out and explore. A perfect chance to strengthen the bond between me and Ville.
So, I agreed to go to California with Jess, Deron, Chad, Ville, and Dunn in hopes to find myself and explore my sexuality. Can’t you already tell this is gonna get bad?
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With Ville gone and almost everyone in the house mad at me, I decided to go with Jess to pick up Chad and Deron from their hotel.
“Where’d Ville go this morning?” asked Jess. Just thinking about Ville made me want to scream and cry all at the same time.
“He didn’t go back to Finland did he?” Jess seemed more concerned then I was. Maybe he knew I had feelings for Ville.
“No, he didn’t. Dunn told me he went to a hotel,” Ville had called him an hour after he left so no one worried about him.
“Are you going to go talk to him?” Jess was really concerned about this. I know what you’re thinking, “Aw! He’s looking out for his little brother!” It’s fucking annoying. I knew Jess had suspicions about me liking Ville.
Chad and Deron were certainly excited to see us. They were full of stories to tell us about what happened at the party after me, Jenn, Jess, Ville, Dunn, and Raab left.
All the stories were basically the same, I learned to tune them out. I knew exactly when to laugh and when to say “What the fuck?”
“Bam, are you ok?” Chad’s voice snapped me back into reality. What happened? Did I miss a laughing cue?
“Yah, I’m fine. Why?” I asked. Chad just shook his head and continued his story on some twins who were at the after party.
“Did you see Bam-Bam kiss Valo?” Jess asked. How embarrasing. Deron nodded, Chad just put on his headphones.
“You and Ville seem really close Bam,” Deron smiled. Great, now he suspected something. I figured I might as well just tell them how I felt. I trusted them.
“Ok you guys, don’t tell anyone, but…I like Ville,” I said that last part so quickly, I wasn’t sure they’d heard me.
“Of course you like Ville. He’s your best friend,” Deron laughed.
“He means as more then a friend dipshit!” Jess said. Thank god Jess said it, because I didn’t want to explain it to Deron.
As we pulled up to the house, I saw Ville outside talking to Dunn. I didn’t even wait for Jess to park the car, I jumped out and ran over to Ville.
“Ville, I need to talk to you,” I said, out of breath. I didn’t even wait for him to say anything, I dragged him up to my room.
As I shut the door, Ville smiled.
“I’m sorry I yelled at you,” I said. I threw my arms around him. I expected Ville to say something, but he just kissed me and pushed me onto the bed.
Oh yes, things were definetely getting hot…
Chapter 5
Ok, so things were getting steamy with me and Ville in my bedroom.
When he pushed me onto the bed, I didn’t know what to do. I just let him kiss me wherever he wanted to. Again, I know what you’re thinking, “Kiss him Bam!”
Unfortunately, I was so nervous I could hardly breathe. Before things got very x-rated, which I was dreading actually, there was a knock on the door. Ville jumped off me and opened the door. Jess and Chad were standing there. Jess laughed when he saw me on the bed.
“Are we…interrupting something?” Chad smiled. Ok, good, he had been informed about the situation with Ville.
“No, not at all. Nothing we can’t finish later,” Ville seemed so confident. It made me feel so empty and weak.
“Ok, Bam, Ape wants to see you in he kitchen,” Jess frowned. My face drained of all color. Oh, shit. Ape knew something. Who would’ve told her? Jess? No. Maybe Jenn.
I walked down to the kitchen slowly to meet my doom. Ape was sitting at the table, she saw me and motioned me to sit down across from her.
I knew she’d be pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be after finding out their son is gay? No, I wasn’t gay. Was I? Maybe I was bi.
“Bam, I just want you to know I’m happy for you…” she didn’t look happy, she looked hurt.
“No you’re not. Tell me what’s wrong.” I said that with such confidence, how did I know she was talking about me and my sexuality?
“I know about you and Ville. And I know this is your house too, but I can’t live like this Bam, all the fights you get into with everyone. Especially what happened yesterday,” now I could tell she was seriously pissed at me.
“Well what do you want me to do?” I practically screamed at her.
“Get out of the house for a little bit. Explore the world. Go find yourself.” Her face softened. She was going to cry.
She wasn’t really mad at me, she was only concerned. Her advice wasn’t bad at all. Because of my newly discovered sexuality, I should go out and explore. A perfect chance to strengthen the bond between me and Ville.
So, I agreed to go to California with Jess, Deron, Chad, Ville, and Dunn in hopes to find myself and explore my sexuality. Can’t you already tell this is gonna get bad?
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