If I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it...where's the sense in that?
Hearts break.
Friendships die.
Eras end.
But love?
It stays. Like the most torturous creature ever to exist, dangling you above a pit of spikes and then one of cotton candy colored clouds, never allowing you to know which it will drop you into.
*
I was somewhere in my twenties when we met. Beer soaked years and countless meetings in the same ( Read more... )
Comments 63
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Great pacing.It flows so well.
Bittersweet and doomed.
...kinda reminds me of Ville's idea of what a HIM album
is like :P
Reply
*smiles* Thank you. I definitely worked for that, though not hard. This came very quickly to me. See, I've been in a similar situation recently, so it kind of needed to be written.
*nod* Yes. Bittersweet and doomed is a great way to put it. That's how things ended for me too.
Yeah. It does have sort of the hopeless tone of a HIM album.
♥
Reply
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
*hugs*
Such a heartbreaking-ly story. I love it.
Reply
*hugs you back*
Yes, yes, it's meant to break hearts. But make you think, as well.
Tell me, in your opinion, does Ville know or not?
♥
Reply
*eats chocolate :D*
Reply
He suspects, but is never sure. Remember, Bam does, for the most part, manage to keep up the charade of being straight. So when he tilts his head, he's trying to figure Bam out. And Bam himself is scared to say a word, because he knows Ville's straight.
But though Ville suspects, he is not being cruel. He is only trying to save their friendship by putting aside Bam's feelings.
Indeed you could. He did his best, but sometimes...it's just not enough.
*smiles* Enjoy, darling. There's a myriad of flavors: Ghirardelli caramels, Dove Milk Chocolates, Fun Size Twix and Snickers, and Cookies 'n' Cream Hershey Kisses. :)
Reply
(The comment has been removed)
Not to mention to rid myself of all those hopeless romantic feelings I gave Bam instead. :)
Thank you!
It feels real because I was just in Bam's place.
So I put him there. Better him than me.
Reply
"This is as good as it’s going to get; hopefully tonight’ll be the one where it’s enough.", that sentence really hit home.
Also, I like how you convey the impression that his "invisible love" underlies everything he does.
Reply
Well, it's close-up because you have to see the detail to understand the wistful, desperate longing of it all. But it's vague, because Bam, in essence, is taking on the form of my hopeless desire for someone.
No, his hope is very latent. It just hurts to keep it that way, and I should know.
Yeah. I definitely know how that one feels, too.
Well, doesn't it? Doesn't it seem like most of the things Bam does for Ville are prompted by a love that Ville just doesn't seem to see?
I wish he would see it, same as I wish my guy would.
*blows kisses*
Reply
i guess there's a point where things get disproportionally important because tonight might be the night when finally... -and then, before you know it, it's over, and nothing has happened, everything has remained exactly the same, you're still breaking your heart over it, and someone else is still oblivious -or are they? Maybe, just maybe... and the whole vicious circle goes on and on and on.
well, even hopeless desires have their upsides, as long as they can result in pieces as expressive as this, right?
and you definitely succeeded in turning them into something that is heartbreaking in the _good_ way.
Reply
Yeah. Exactly. I've been there. So many times.
Yes, right!
*bows* Thank you.
Reply
Leave a comment