i'm not letting you go know i've found you
Author: Abz666
Title: I’m not letting you go now that I’ve found you
Pairing: Vam,
Summery: Bam finds his true love but finds it difficult trying to prove they should be together. Sequal to why do all good things come to an end
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in the story; the story is just made up.
Author notes Italic is what Bam is thinking. The story is in Bam pov. The red writing is the song. I re-writen chapter 8. I hope you enjoy it.
http:// community.livejournal.com/__vam/3721840.html?#cutid1 chapter 1 http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3723656.html?#cutid1 chater 2 http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3744582.html?#cutid1 chapter 3 http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3748448.html?#cutid1 chapter 4 http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3749149.html?#cutid1 chapter 5 http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3754864.html?#cutid1 chapter 6 http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3757975.html?#cutid1 chapter 7
Jonne noticed that Ville was not directly looking at him. “Ville, look at me. You promised that you wouldn’t bring it up again. What happened has happened. You know there is nothing you can do about it know. You love Bam and I love Christus. That is how it is supposed to me.”
“I know but I still think about what could have been. I just wanted to know if you still thought about what it would be like if we were still together.” “If you didn’t go to America then we would still be together but you or I can change the past. Things happen for a reason”
Ville didn’t seem to take note of what Jonne was saying as he moved closer to Jonne and placed his lips gently on Jonne’s. After a second, Jonne pulled back slightly. “We can’t do this Ville.” “Why not?” “I love Christus.” Jonne was trying to avoid Ville moving closer to him. “It has never stopped you before. Please Jonne. I just need to be comforted at the moment and not be pushed away.”
“True. You know it has never stopped me before but you don’t need this Ville. Bam should be the one to comfort you and not me.” Jonne closes the gap and ingorns the bad feeling he has about cheating on Christus and kisses Ville passionately.
When they brake apart, Jonne moves so he is lying on his back with Ville on top of him. Ville started to kiss along Jonne jaw line and down his neck. “God, I’ve missed you so much Ville.” “Me to.” “Really?” “You have no idea how much I’ve missed you.”
Ville removed Jonne top which was followed by his own. Ville started kissing down Jonne body when he got impatient. “Stop teasing me. It’s been to long and I’ve really missed you.” “Stop being impatient but then again you always were impatient.” “I don’t plan on changing as well.” Ville finished removing Jonne clothes then the rest of Ville clothes were removed.
Within seconds of the clothes being removed Ville was inside of Jonne. His thrust started out in a small moving motion until Jonne rock his hips telling Ville to go harder. “God that’s it Ville. Harder and faster.” “So tight. I’ve forgotten how good it feels. ”After 15 minutes they are both close. “So close. Harder and don’t stop.” “Almost their.” This was enough for Jonne to his orgasm and cums. This pulls Ville into his and his comes shortly after Jonne does, both screaming each other names.
Once both men regain their breath, Jonne turns to Ville. “What has happened for you to be wondering the streets at night?” “Abbie is in hospital and I couldn’t stand being in the same room with Bam.” “Why couldn’t you stand being in the same room?”
Ville snuggled into Jonne and took a deep breath. “I started on Bam about Abbie getting run over.” Jonne smiled and shock his head. “Ville, what is this really about?” “I’ve just told you.” “This has nothing to do with Abbie and don’t lie. I know you better than you think I do.” “I know you do. Bam wants me to give us another go but I can’t because I don’t want to get hurt like I did the last time.”
“Ville, things change. People change. It doesn’t mean the same thing will happen again. The only way you will find out is by giving it another try.” “I don’t want to get hurt and I don’t want my children to get hurt as well.” “Stop trying to run away and give it another try. Promise me you will do that. You will just keep woundering would would happen if you don’t give it another try.” Ville kisses Jonne. “Yes and thank you.” “For what?”
“For being here for my.” “Hey, what are friends for.” “Can you sting for me Jonne.” “Yes I can honey. You know that I will always be here for you no matter what haappens.” “I know and that’s what I love about you. You are a true friend and one in a million.”
These are those days when I can get no sleep
I'm so tired I'd like to fall into sleep
I fall in my Bed but still I'm Awake
These questions in my mind are so much
bigger than Life but my life is short
I have to leave them behind
I have to try to forget that I am still in my bed
In my deepest fears I'm losing you
Even if somebody tried to stop my heart
I'm still Alive I will never give up
Just turn off the lights Don't wanna see me die
I look like I'm dead but when you look at me
I am still alive
Just open your eyes Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you want me to be fighting
with myself
All I need to feel is your breath on my skin
This endless longing between You and me
We can't give up now, we're gonna make it
somehow
In my sweetest dreams I'm with you
Even if somebody tried to stop my heart
I'm still alive I will never give up
Just turn off the lights Don't wanna see me die
I look like I'm dead but when you look at me
I am still alive
Just open your eyes Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you want me to be fighting
with myself
Ville was just starting to get to sleep when his mobile started ringing. Ville answered and went straight back to hospital as Abbie was wake. “Hey, how are you feeling?” “Ok when can I go home?” Abbie said this in a moody voice which hurt Ville. All he wanted to do was take her home and look after her. Ville knows this can’t happen as Abbie needs medical attation.
“Not for a few days sweetheart.” “Oh no. I want to go home. I hate this place.” “I know sweetheart but you have to stay here until you get better. What happened?” Abbie looked away from Ville. When she did turn to face him again, Ville could see the fear in her eyes.
“Dunn wouldn’t let me go to a skate shop so I ran away. I don’t like him.” “I’ve told you not to run away from people.” “I’m sorry.” “It’s Bam you should be saying sorry to.”
“Daddy, are you mad at me?” “No sweetheart. I was worried and mad at myself.” “Have you seen Jonne?” “How can you tell?” Abbie started sniffing Ville and smiled weakly at him. “I can smell him on you. Are we staying here?” “Do you like it here?” “Yes. It’s nice and I like Bammie. He’s nice” “Yes but I need to talk to him first.”
Abbie started bouncying on the bed which worried Ville. “I get to stay here. I get to stay here.” Abbie said this is a sing-song voice which for the first time in 2 hours Ville smiled. “I see you have no changed. I see you later.” “Daddy. I love you.” “I love you to.” Abbie started crying as Ville was leaving.
Ville left the room and want to the waiting room. It broke his heart having to leave Abbie when see needed him the most. He saw that Bam was still in the same position he was in when Ville left. He walked over and asked April to get everyone out of the room. Once the room was empty, Ville sat down next to Bam.
“Bam, can you look at me.” “No it’s my fault. I’ve killed her.” Bam was crying althought her tried to not cry infront of Ville. “What happened is not your fault, don’t blame yourself. You did the best you could.” Ville put his hand under Bam check and forced him to look at Ville. “Abbie is fine so stop blaming your self.”
“What made you change your mind about it being my fault?” Ville looked to the ground in shame. He realised how stuiped he had been to think this could have been Bam’s frault. He also felt stupied for sleeping with Jonne when it was clear that Bam needed him here.
“I went out to think about everything. I was upset and just wanted to blame someone. I didn’t mean any of it. I’m sorry.” “Are you going to stay or are you going back” “Abbie wants to stay and I was thinking maybe we could try being a family if that’s ok with you.” Bam smiled for the first time that night. “Yes, I would love that. I love you.” “I love you to.” Ville closed the gap and kissed Bam. The kisses started out slow but grow more passionate as he let Bam deep the kiss.