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Title: Lonely Road.
Rating: R.
Warnings: Sexual content, violence, and language.
Summery: Bam has vowed to never fall inlove again, not after Jen. But sometimes you have to let your heart lead the way and let yourself go.
Disclaimer: Unfortunatly my request to buy them has not been taken seriously by the said members in this story, so nothing is mine. As far as this happeneing goes, they will not admit to anything, so i'm left wondering and dreaming. As will you all, too.
A/N: Links to previous chapters can be found inside.
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Later that day we all sat around in the lobby, just talking about different things. Mige and Linde argued about random kids these days, and Ville just sat there, laughing at them. Burton was talking to Seppo. Seppo seemed to be happy with the show lastnight, and he told me he needed to see some clips of it before we put it in the documentary. Im not sure why, but i agreed anyway. There were a good 12 people around us, 2 camera's taking pictures of what we were doing, and i had mine on me, even though i hadn't turned it on yet.
I'd spent most of the morning taking single shots of Burton, then of Linde. I had to get each member. So far I had all of Burtons. Only half of Mige and one really good single shot of Ville. I had a good months and a half to get what I needed, so I didn't bother hurrying like i always did. Everyone here knew how impathient I was. I think they figure it out when we did the Sacrament and there was no keyboard, and then when we ordered one it was late. I spent a good half hour pulling my hair out, freaking.
Truth was, I enjoyed spending the extra time with the guys. They were really good company. I remember that was one of the days I caught Jen with some guy in my bed. I had spent most of the night at some bar, and I called Jen and told her I wasn't going to be home, that I was crashing on someones couch. Then I ended up going home, I wanted to see her. I walked in, and she was onto of some guy moaning out 'charles' and 'i love you's. I didn't cry that night, no. I just beat the shit out of a tree in the backyard till the morning. I was sitting outside beside the pool when mom said i had a call from Seppo. It was a bad day, then they came and I had fun. Granted I was stressed, and wasn't in the best mood, but Ville always made it better. I mean, the guys. They all made it better.
My thoughts were broke when I heard my name.
"Bam." I heard ville say, I turned my head towards him, he was leaning over Gas's lap, looking at me.
"Yeah?"
"Can I talk to you for a moment.."
I nodded and followed his actions as he got up from the couch and walked out into the side hallway.
He stopped at the end in the little porch, and closed the door behind us.
He was quiet for a few minutes, contemplating what to say. He lowered his head running his hand through his hair. It was messy, and he hadn't brushed it in so long. It still looked damp from the shower he must have taken this morning, becuase he smelled like apple soap.
"Bam.. I know we already talked about this.. but.. I can't stop. I mean, I thought I could just gotget about it, sleep it off you know? But I can't." He sighed, stepping closer to me, picking up my hands and placing them in his.
"The truth is, that I was up all lastnight thinking about your smile. Your laugh. What it would feel like to kiss you."
I lowered my head as he spoke these words.
"Look at me." He said, lifting my face to his by my chin. "Bam.. I love you. I know you and Jen broke up.. I know your hurting. But.. I know deep down somewhere you love me back."
Before I could speak, his lips were on my, softly caressing them. I didn't want to kiss back, but I ended up. I don't know why.. I just did.
I suddenly pulled away "Ville..no.. I.. can't." I said, turning around and leaving.
I jogged back to my room, slamming my door shut and going over to my bed, laying on my side. I curled up, cursing myself.
His lips felt good. Really good. Better than Jens. I shook my head violently. "No." I said to myself. "Not again."
Comment.
April.
Rating: R.
Warnings: Sexual content, violence, and language.
Summery: Bam has vowed to never fall inlove again, not after Jen. But sometimes you have to let your heart lead the way and let yourself go.
Disclaimer: Unfortunatly my request to buy them has not been taken seriously by the said members in this story, so nothing is mine. As far as this happeneing goes, they will not admit to anything, so i'm left wondering and dreaming. As will you all, too.
A/N: Links to previous chapters can be found inside.
one
two
three
Four.
Later that day we all sat around in the lobby, just talking about different things. Mige and Linde argued about random kids these days, and Ville just sat there, laughing at them. Burton was talking to Seppo. Seppo seemed to be happy with the show lastnight, and he told me he needed to see some clips of it before we put it in the documentary. Im not sure why, but i agreed anyway. There were a good 12 people around us, 2 camera's taking pictures of what we were doing, and i had mine on me, even though i hadn't turned it on yet.
I'd spent most of the morning taking single shots of Burton, then of Linde. I had to get each member. So far I had all of Burtons. Only half of Mige and one really good single shot of Ville. I had a good months and a half to get what I needed, so I didn't bother hurrying like i always did. Everyone here knew how impathient I was. I think they figure it out when we did the Sacrament and there was no keyboard, and then when we ordered one it was late. I spent a good half hour pulling my hair out, freaking.
Truth was, I enjoyed spending the extra time with the guys. They were really good company. I remember that was one of the days I caught Jen with some guy in my bed. I had spent most of the night at some bar, and I called Jen and told her I wasn't going to be home, that I was crashing on someones couch. Then I ended up going home, I wanted to see her. I walked in, and she was onto of some guy moaning out 'charles' and 'i love you's. I didn't cry that night, no. I just beat the shit out of a tree in the backyard till the morning. I was sitting outside beside the pool when mom said i had a call from Seppo. It was a bad day, then they came and I had fun. Granted I was stressed, and wasn't in the best mood, but Ville always made it better. I mean, the guys. They all made it better.
My thoughts were broke when I heard my name.
"Bam." I heard ville say, I turned my head towards him, he was leaning over Gas's lap, looking at me.
"Yeah?"
"Can I talk to you for a moment.."
I nodded and followed his actions as he got up from the couch and walked out into the side hallway.
He stopped at the end in the little porch, and closed the door behind us.
He was quiet for a few minutes, contemplating what to say. He lowered his head running his hand through his hair. It was messy, and he hadn't brushed it in so long. It still looked damp from the shower he must have taken this morning, becuase he smelled like apple soap.
"Bam.. I know we already talked about this.. but.. I can't stop. I mean, I thought I could just gotget about it, sleep it off you know? But I can't." He sighed, stepping closer to me, picking up my hands and placing them in his.
"The truth is, that I was up all lastnight thinking about your smile. Your laugh. What it would feel like to kiss you."
I lowered my head as he spoke these words.
"Look at me." He said, lifting my face to his by my chin. "Bam.. I love you. I know you and Jen broke up.. I know your hurting. But.. I know deep down somewhere you love me back."
Before I could speak, his lips were on my, softly caressing them. I didn't want to kiss back, but I ended up. I don't know why.. I just did.
I suddenly pulled away "Ville..no.. I.. can't." I said, turning around and leaving.
I jogged back to my room, slamming my door shut and going over to my bed, laying on my side. I curled up, cursing myself.
His lips felt good. Really good. Better than Jens. I shook my head violently. "No." I said to myself. "Not again."
Comment.
April.