The last thing I'll post for a couple days. Shirley over, strike O.o, and just exhaustion...ENJOY!

[slasher48]

My fault. My fault. My fault.

It’s a chant in my head that won’t stop.

Why don’t they look at me with hateful, accusing stares? Why do they let me speak here at the podium of how amazing of a person you were? Why do they look sympathetic when I cry while I speak? Why don’t they laugh and jeer at me? “You deserve it!”

Don’t they know?

Comments

[anonymous]

Awww that really sad u.u
It's been a while since I read a fic that made me almost cry...
I love those as crazy as that sounds, poor boys!

[slasher48]

Thanks. It was supposed to be. :\

Has it really? You should check out some of my others. I write a lot, and I mean a LOT of angst.

So do I, so I really don't get the crazy of it. ;)

They are! *pats them*

[dark_angel7666]

awww I'm almost crying
it's so beautifully done.
great work sweetheart

[slasher48]

*huggles* I'm sorry, but not. Y'know? ^^

Thank you! Beautifully done is definitely pleasing to hear. :)

Thanks. :D

[lvr_girl616]

wow, you know you have such a way with words my dear drea. It saddened me and it didn't help that "face of god" was on....and I'm sorry about your mother my dear. I can not imagine what it must be like to have a lost a parent, but yes I believe that she is looking dow on you too, smiling at the young woman you have become. I don't know you as well as some of your other friends might, but that's what I believe sweetie.....^^

You know it's only 5 days till my east coast trip and damn it I wanna see you! *pouts at the idea she might not*

*huggles u so extra hard, filled with VAMmie love*

♥

[slasher48]

*smiles* Thanks darling.

*hugs* You're always the lucky one to have a great song playing when you read my stuff! ;)

*sighs* Thank you, sweetheart. Trust me, you don't ever WANT to imagine it. It hurts, and every day you just kind of have to go on...I mean, I'm me, so it's easier for me than most because I have this inner fire and determination that she instilled in me...but it's still awful.

*smiles* You always know the right thing to say. Thank you for that, sweetie. It means a lot to me.

I know! I want to see you too! But I can't get any closer than Erie. So...we might end up not meeting this time. :(

*huggles you back, kisses your cheek in thanks*

♥

[lvr_girl616]

*smiles back* You are welcome, my dear

[slasher48]

:)

*snuggles* Exactly. ;)

*bows* Thank you. So much. Everything you say makes me feel better.

Oh, but you are. You, all of you, on Vam, are just as close to me as my friends are. Especially you, Stephie, and Jezzie, and Dani and Dana, Fizzy, Kimi, Nikole, Amber, and Brady...all of you who speak to me away from Vam. You know me better than even some of my friends do.^^

Thank you again. You're wonderful, lovely, amazing, as well.

Oh, you've helped me more than you know, my love. Don't ever worry you haven't. :)

ARGH! We have to! Of course, of course! College and Helldone, of course! ^^

*huggles you back and smiles*

♥ ♥ ♥

[slasher48]

For future reference because it's more personal to call me by my name, it's Andrea

[lillithvalo]

NO!!!!
BAMMIE DON'T LEAVE WILLA!!!
Stupid Willa Stupid!
WHat a horrible thing to say to your Bammie.. look what you did!

*grabs her Bammie around the waist* I wont shove you away baby. *kiss*

[slasher48]

Yes. Bammie left.

That's what happens when people are stupid and refuse what they really want.

And when they're too cowardly to apologize or face their actions.

Yes. He was. And he knows it.

I know!

*snuggles into you* I know, love. I know. *kiss* Where are you? I need some cuddles and kisses to make me feel all better about my horrid day.

Love you!

[lillithvalo]

*pouts*
My msn wont sign in..Grrrrrrr
it keeps telling me 'm signed in at a differant computer.. grrrrrr

I love you.. i wish i could give you some comfort

[slasher48]

*whines* Stupid MSN. Made of Suck Network, for sure. ><.

I love you too, darling. So do I. *sigh*