me again with a new story
The feeling of being lost is one of my memories I would rather forget, being torn between the love of a woman I was about to marry and the love of a man I had known for longer. Jenn, the woman I was suppose to marry, I had been with for little over two years. Ville, the man I had and still do love dearly, has known me for 4 years. I had known him, not personally, for 6. But I had known him personally for round about the same amount as he has known me. Surely, I would pick Jenn because we’re engaged about to be married. But, I... I don’t feel so sure anymore. I want to admit my love to Ville, hoping the same in return; I want to be held in his strong arms, not because of comfort after another fight with Jenn, but because of love and adoration. But would I get my wish? Would I be able to tell Jenn I love her as a friend and go with Ville to live out my, our happily ever after? Or would my life become just a pile of ash, being blown and fading into the distance by the winds of loneliness?
My name’s Bam Margera and this is where my story of love and anguish begins...
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I sat on the small leather couch, curled under a heavy blanket watching the Birdhouse skate demo. I heard small quiet steps coming towards the couch and saw Jenn lean over the arm rest. Even in the corner of my eye I could tell she was smiling.
“Heya babe, how are you feeling? Feeling any better?”
I shook my head but regretted it when my head throbbed in pain. Jenn touched my head in an attempt to soothe it but only made it worse, making me jolt my head away and groaning.
Jenn sighed and walked off; Captain popped his head out from under the duvet and yawned. I smiled and patted his head, letting him jump off the sofa and down to the pirate bar.
Jenn and I had had rough week, our relationship going from perfect to utterly broken. We argue most days, and stay away for others. We’re not the perfect couple we use to be. Heck, we can’t even stay in the say room anymore because we end up shouting.
I hear a commotion behind me and see Jenn lifting a suitcase up the stairs. I frown, but don’t comment. She turned to me and glared and I suddenly knew what she was doing.
“You’re leaving me?!” I shout, ignoring the pain in my head and stomach as I get up and stare at her in disbelief.
Ryan stands behind me and frowns, he had sent the CKY crew to get some more beer and ciggies so it was just him in the house, he seems as shocked as I was.
Jenn throws the suitcase to ground and lobs the first thing she could reach, a candlestick holder off the table, at us. We both ducked and stared at her in total shock.
“Bam Margera, you are the most selfish, cold hearted, annoying bastard I have ever met! All you care about is yourself! Making sure what you want is oh so perfect! I’m sick of it Bam, I’m sick of you, I’m sick of your friends! I hope I see you’re rotting face in a fucking coffin.” I blink and watch her walk out the door, hearing it slam loudly throughout the castle.
I collapse onto the sofa and hold back my tears, her words sinking into my head and I start to think they’re true.
“Bam, don’t listen to a word she said. She’s just a whore who was looking for money.” Jeez Ryan, that made me feel a whole lot better.
I shake my head and stand up, turning and running towards my room before I caused damage.
A few hours later and I hear someone knocking on my door. I don’t say a word and as I had guessed, April walks in without waiting for one.
“What happened between you and Jenn?” she asked in a motherly fashion. I shook my head and turned away from her, looking out the window and towards the darkening skies.
I feel the bed dip and her warm hand touched my arm; I only tugged it away from her touch.
“Don’t touch me.” I whisper, glaring at the setting sun hoping that was my life at that very moment. I can see her reach out for me and I get off the bed, walking over to the window seat and pulling my knees to my chest. I hear her sigh and watch her reflection disappear out of view.
The door closes quietly and I do the one thing I haven’t done in years. I break down and cry.
sorry it's short
My name’s Bam Margera and this is where my story of love and anguish begins...
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I sat on the small leather couch, curled under a heavy blanket watching the Birdhouse skate demo. I heard small quiet steps coming towards the couch and saw Jenn lean over the arm rest. Even in the corner of my eye I could tell she was smiling.
“Heya babe, how are you feeling? Feeling any better?”
I shook my head but regretted it when my head throbbed in pain. Jenn touched my head in an attempt to soothe it but only made it worse, making me jolt my head away and groaning.
Jenn sighed and walked off; Captain popped his head out from under the duvet and yawned. I smiled and patted his head, letting him jump off the sofa and down to the pirate bar.
Jenn and I had had rough week, our relationship going from perfect to utterly broken. We argue most days, and stay away for others. We’re not the perfect couple we use to be. Heck, we can’t even stay in the say room anymore because we end up shouting.
I hear a commotion behind me and see Jenn lifting a suitcase up the stairs. I frown, but don’t comment. She turned to me and glared and I suddenly knew what she was doing.
“You’re leaving me?!” I shout, ignoring the pain in my head and stomach as I get up and stare at her in disbelief.
Ryan stands behind me and frowns, he had sent the CKY crew to get some more beer and ciggies so it was just him in the house, he seems as shocked as I was.
Jenn throws the suitcase to ground and lobs the first thing she could reach, a candlestick holder off the table, at us. We both ducked and stared at her in total shock.
“Bam Margera, you are the most selfish, cold hearted, annoying bastard I have ever met! All you care about is yourself! Making sure what you want is oh so perfect! I’m sick of it Bam, I’m sick of you, I’m sick of your friends! I hope I see you’re rotting face in a fucking coffin.” I blink and watch her walk out the door, hearing it slam loudly throughout the castle.
I collapse onto the sofa and hold back my tears, her words sinking into my head and I start to think they’re true.
“Bam, don’t listen to a word she said. She’s just a whore who was looking for money.” Jeez Ryan, that made me feel a whole lot better.
I shake my head and stand up, turning and running towards my room before I caused damage.
A few hours later and I hear someone knocking on my door. I don’t say a word and as I had guessed, April walks in without waiting for one.
“What happened between you and Jenn?” she asked in a motherly fashion. I shook my head and turned away from her, looking out the window and towards the darkening skies.
I feel the bed dip and her warm hand touched my arm; I only tugged it away from her touch.
“Don’t touch me.” I whisper, glaring at the setting sun hoping that was my life at that very moment. I can see her reach out for me and I get off the bed, walking over to the window seat and pulling my knees to my chest. I hear her sigh and watch her reflection disappear out of view.
The door closes quietly and I do the one thing I haven’t done in years. I break down and cry.
sorry it's short