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For Chapter 1 please refer to here <-- Thanks.
Title: They All Knew
Rated: R for the time being. (cursing in this chapter)
Disclaimer: This is faker than Bam being in my pants right now.
Summary: Everyone knew the truth about Bam, everyone but him. He wasn’t in love with Jenn anymore. He was in love with Ville. Even Jenn knew, even Jenn wanted to help out. But how would you tell your boyfriend he was gay and in love with his best friend? Would jealously get in the way? Would things start to get different? What about betrayal and keeping the promise? There were so many questions, with only one answer…
I can't expect you to see me when I’m not around and my voice is destroyed by confinement of sound. I’m a human machine laced with hidden disease; if the future is bleak then you're connected to me…
“Did you talk to him?” Jenn asked Ville curiously.
Ville just nodded, he didn’t want to be playing this game anymore.
“Well what did he say?” Jenn insisted.
“He said he loves you.” He said weakly. “He said he loves you!” Then he got louder repeating it.
“No, he doesn’t.”
“Well, whatever he’s denying it. But I’m not going to force him to do anything.” Ville insisted back and walked away from her. And he wanted to be as far away as possible from Bam even if he knew he couldn’t.
Jenn took the hint finally, and decided to talk to Bam on her own.
Arriving at his house, Bam instantly greeted her outside his house stopping his skateboarding. “I missed you.” He said falling into her arms. Jenn sighed when she noticed MTV was filming.
“Can we talk away from everyone?” She whispered in his ear. Bam nodded and took her inside the house. “Sometimes I really hate those cameras.”
“Yeah, but what’s up?” Bam asked going and trying to kiss her.
Jenn backed away. “I know the truth, Bam.”
“What truth with what?!” Bam already was getting frustrated knowing exactly where this was going.
“You don’t love me anymore, and I don’t want to be with you.”
“Jenn, I do love you. I’ve been with you for years, you’re the only person in my life that - that I want to love - stop this!!!” Bam screamed throwing his hands in the air. “It’s my feelings, my feelings are my feelings.”
“Just because we’ve been together for years doesn’t mean you love me. You don’t have the feelings for me as you have with Ville.”
“I’m not gay.”
“You don’t have to be gay.”
“I’m not in love with Ville.”
“Then who are you in love with Bam? It isn’t me.”
“What. The. Fuck?” Bam retorted.
“Bam, fine. It’s over, I don’t love you anymore either.”
“Jenn?” Bam questioned her with the sharp hint of tears. He didn’t still understand any of this.
“Don’t, Bam. Goodbye.” She answered and kissed his cheek, goodbye and walked out.
Bam held his hand to his cheek and pondered till he would hope he had some kind of answer but there was nothing, he was more gone astray than anything. He let go of himself and walked back outside. He walked passed the cameras to his Hummer and drove off as quickly as he could.
He was going straight to Ville’s hotel. He needed him, he wanted to cry and Ville was the only person that ever saw him cry.
Arriving, he knocking his door loudly, Ville answered right away knowing he was coming, he always knew him, he knew him to well, he just wished he knew how he felt, why he was keeping it inside. “She dumped me.” He sobbed out falling into the comforting arms.
“I know, Bam, I know.” Ville answered soothingly, his hands running up and down Bam’s back.
“Did she tell you?” Bam sniffled, pulling away and crawling onto Ville’s bad. “That fucking bitch.”
“Bam, she did it because she wants us to be together.” Ville told him sitting on the bed.
“Why?” Bam titled his head to look at Bam. The innocent look in his eyes was too good to be true. The eyes once filled with mischievous were finally seeking innocence. “Why would she do that? I’m not gay.”
“You don’t have to be gay.”
“Stop saying that! She said that too.”
Ville shook his head, putting his hand on Bam’s shoulder. “Look Bam, I fell in love with you, and I don’t regret that at all. I told Jenn, and she told me that she knew you had loved me too because of how the ‘love’ you two once had was gone when all you ever did was talk about me. And since she loved you, she said she’d do anything to make you ‘happy’ again.”
Bam shook his head now, scared, shaking, and whimpering trying so hard to say something, say the words he knew he had to say but he just couldn’t - he wasn’t sure - he didn’t know how he really was supposed to feel. “I…I…need time to think…I don’t know how I feel.”
“I said, I couldn’t wait forever Bam, but I will try to give you time to think.” Ville spoke just above a whisper, his thumb moving across Bam’s cheek.
“Promise? I just have to realize a few things.”
Ville nodded and grabbed Bam close to him in a hug. Bam breathed in his embrace and sighed peacefully, maybe there was love there after all.
you live in fear of being someone that you didn't want to, I realize your insecurity will get the best of you…
Feedback is appreciated, and the next Chapter should be out soon, I promise.
Title: They All Knew
Rated: R for the time being. (cursing in this chapter)
Disclaimer: This is faker than Bam being in my pants right now.
Summary: Everyone knew the truth about Bam, everyone but him. He wasn’t in love with Jenn anymore. He was in love with Ville. Even Jenn knew, even Jenn wanted to help out. But how would you tell your boyfriend he was gay and in love with his best friend? Would jealously get in the way? Would things start to get different? What about betrayal and keeping the promise? There were so many questions, with only one answer…
I can't expect you to see me when I’m not around and my voice is destroyed by confinement of sound. I’m a human machine laced with hidden disease; if the future is bleak then you're connected to me…
“Did you talk to him?” Jenn asked Ville curiously.
Ville just nodded, he didn’t want to be playing this game anymore.
“Well what did he say?” Jenn insisted.
“He said he loves you.” He said weakly. “He said he loves you!” Then he got louder repeating it.
“No, he doesn’t.”
“Well, whatever he’s denying it. But I’m not going to force him to do anything.” Ville insisted back and walked away from her. And he wanted to be as far away as possible from Bam even if he knew he couldn’t.
Jenn took the hint finally, and decided to talk to Bam on her own.
Arriving at his house, Bam instantly greeted her outside his house stopping his skateboarding. “I missed you.” He said falling into her arms. Jenn sighed when she noticed MTV was filming.
“Can we talk away from everyone?” She whispered in his ear. Bam nodded and took her inside the house. “Sometimes I really hate those cameras.”
“Yeah, but what’s up?” Bam asked going and trying to kiss her.
Jenn backed away. “I know the truth, Bam.”
“What truth with what?!” Bam already was getting frustrated knowing exactly where this was going.
“You don’t love me anymore, and I don’t want to be with you.”
“Jenn, I do love you. I’ve been with you for years, you’re the only person in my life that - that I want to love - stop this!!!” Bam screamed throwing his hands in the air. “It’s my feelings, my feelings are my feelings.”
“Just because we’ve been together for years doesn’t mean you love me. You don’t have the feelings for me as you have with Ville.”
“I’m not gay.”
“You don’t have to be gay.”
“I’m not in love with Ville.”
“Then who are you in love with Bam? It isn’t me.”
“What. The. Fuck?” Bam retorted.
“Bam, fine. It’s over, I don’t love you anymore either.”
“Jenn?” Bam questioned her with the sharp hint of tears. He didn’t still understand any of this.
“Don’t, Bam. Goodbye.” She answered and kissed his cheek, goodbye and walked out.
Bam held his hand to his cheek and pondered till he would hope he had some kind of answer but there was nothing, he was more gone astray than anything. He let go of himself and walked back outside. He walked passed the cameras to his Hummer and drove off as quickly as he could.
He was going straight to Ville’s hotel. He needed him, he wanted to cry and Ville was the only person that ever saw him cry.
Arriving, he knocking his door loudly, Ville answered right away knowing he was coming, he always knew him, he knew him to well, he just wished he knew how he felt, why he was keeping it inside. “She dumped me.” He sobbed out falling into the comforting arms.
“I know, Bam, I know.” Ville answered soothingly, his hands running up and down Bam’s back.
“Did she tell you?” Bam sniffled, pulling away and crawling onto Ville’s bad. “That fucking bitch.”
“Bam, she did it because she wants us to be together.” Ville told him sitting on the bed.
“Why?” Bam titled his head to look at Bam. The innocent look in his eyes was too good to be true. The eyes once filled with mischievous were finally seeking innocence. “Why would she do that? I’m not gay.”
“You don’t have to be gay.”
“Stop saying that! She said that too.”
Ville shook his head, putting his hand on Bam’s shoulder. “Look Bam, I fell in love with you, and I don’t regret that at all. I told Jenn, and she told me that she knew you had loved me too because of how the ‘love’ you two once had was gone when all you ever did was talk about me. And since she loved you, she said she’d do anything to make you ‘happy’ again.”
Bam shook his head now, scared, shaking, and whimpering trying so hard to say something, say the words he knew he had to say but he just couldn’t - he wasn’t sure - he didn’t know how he really was supposed to feel. “I…I…need time to think…I don’t know how I feel.”
“I said, I couldn’t wait forever Bam, but I will try to give you time to think.” Ville spoke just above a whisper, his thumb moving across Bam’s cheek.
“Promise? I just have to realize a few things.”
Ville nodded and grabbed Bam close to him in a hug. Bam breathed in his embrace and sighed peacefully, maybe there was love there after all.
you live in fear of being someone that you didn't want to, I realize your insecurity will get the best of you…
Feedback is appreciated, and the next Chapter should be out soon, I promise.