Say You Love Me Too - Chapter 20
Chapter 20 YAY!
Title: Say You Love Me Too
Author: absinthe_memory
Pairing: VAM
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own Ville or Bam. All incidents are fiction. But we all can dream.
Summary: Bam hit his head skating, his friend Ryan helped him. His memories of a hard time in Finland were on his mind, what will he do when he meets those memories face to face?
Ch 1-10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
A/N: I'm getting better YAY! Plus I took some pics hehe. April is in this one :) and Ville shows a side of him that didn't get shown before, you'll all see.
Ville stood before the sink in the pirate bar, holding two pills in his hand. Both are taken everyday, and then a sleeping pill just before bed. He closed his eyes as he washed them down with water. He wondered what Bam would think if he saw him taking these pills, what his reaction would be, and what he'd do. He was aweful, he drank all the time when he took them, that was also a reason why he almost killed himself. Ville knew what Bam's face would be like if he saw the pills he was taking, anti-depressants, and one to keep him calm so he wouldn't burst out into a violent fit.
He quickly put them in a cupboard, turning around when he saw Ryan walk in. "Ville, what was that?" he whispered softly, walking around the island towards Ville.
Ville bit his lip, looking anywhere but Ryan's face. "Pills that I take," he whispered, hoping Bam wasn't anywhere near them. Knowing Bam he'd probably just end up coming down the stairs, but he didn't thankfully.
"How long have you been taking them?" Ryan asked, his voice dropping low.
"Since I was 19, right after Bam left." Ryan nodded his head, catching on to the reason for the medication. He couldn't imagine a day without them, he feared he try something stupid and end up in the hospital for hurting himself. He grabbed Ryan's arms, looking in his eyes. "Don't, please don't tell Bam."
"Don't tell Bam what?" Bam asked, coming down the stairs. Ville looked over at Bam, trying to paste on a fake smile.
"That I wanted to stay here in West Chester for awhile," Ville lied, hoping Bam would agree to it, and not cause any problems.
Bam nodded his head. "That's a fantastic idea, you'll have to call and make sure the guys know, and Seppo."
--~+~--
Ville had called everyone he knew, telling them his new plan. He wanted to stay, but he hadn't thought it over before it came out of his mouth. He told Seppo he would be staying with Bam for a month, to get his health up, and when he feels better he'd head back to Finland. It was bugging him, that Ryan knew, and it worried him to new heights that Bam would find out. If Bam knew he'd make him stop taking the pills, he'd throw them down the drain, and in truth Ville hadn't knew a day after Bam leaving what it felt like without pills or drugs. It was something he held onto from being under Mont's control.
Bam was laying on the couch watching tv alone, this was the perfect chance for him to talk to Bam one on one. He sat down beside him, looking into the blue eyes fixed on the tv, Ville put his hand on Bam's knee as the brown haired boy turned his head towards him slowly. "Yeah Vil," he smiled lazily, lifting his arms over his head to stretch.
"Bam, I want to talk about last night." Ville looked in his eyes, overcome with his feelings. He stopped the tears from falling, he didn't want to break down in front of Bam.
"Yeah, it was fabulous," Bam grinned and continued on, "Just like I always pictured."
"That's great to know, but I want you to know it wasn't just a one time thing for me. You mean something to me Bam, you always have, and if you think this is just a easy fuck..." Bam cut Ville off, wrapping his arms around Ville, pulling the singer close to his chest. He wanted to hold Ville and tell him how he felt.
"It wasn't just sex to me, it never was about that. I thought it was like that for you. Ape is coming over later," Bam whispered against Ville's hair, finally able to pull the Finn down in his arms. He ran his hands though the short wavy hair of the singer, sighing at the half moan coming from Ville's lips.
"I want to stay like this with you Bam, always." He ran his hand down the side of Bam's hip, placing his lips on Bam's softly. He inched his other hand up Bam's shirt, his fingers crawling up the toned body beneath his hand. He was nervous as ever about Bam finding out about the pills, it was starting to haunt him. Imagine Bam finding them, what he'd do with them. Ville feared that above all, it wasn't the fact Bam would be curious or mad, he'd probably say Ville didn't need them, but he thought he did.
--~+~--
April walked in Castle Bam a few hours later, finding her son and a boy she saw before, but she couldn't place him. They were were shirtless, and covered in a tiny throw blanket that was half hanging off their hips, Bam was behind resting his face on the other's shoulder, while he was sleeping peacefully on a throw pillow. Their legs were entwined, bare and sticking out from under the tiny throw blanket. "Bam," she whispered, dropping the bags on a nearby chair. "Bam, honey."
Bam's head snapped up, while the Finn slowly opened his eyes in a daze. "APE, FUCK!" Bam screeched in shock, grabbing into Ville tighter. "Christ woman, what's gotten into you?" Bam demanded sternly, using Ville to cover most of his naked body, minus the tiny covered area by the blanket. April looked at the two boys with amusement, cocking her head to the side with a smile.
"Who's this Bam?"
"This is Ville, my new boyfriend," Bam said, lacing his fingers in Ville's. Ville looked up at the sound of boyfriend, smiling from ear to ear at Bam's choice in words.
"Ville, honey!" April screamed, running over quickly. "Oh my god, it's been too long. How are you?"
"I've been good, how are you?"
"Ville, what's that patch on your wrist?" April demanded, putting her hands on her hips, staring the Finn down. Ville gulped and told her the truth about the patch, watching her face turn from happy to sad. "Thank god for Bam," she said, taking a seat on the chair next to the leather couch.
Bam coughed, looking in April's direction. "Look, Ape. We'd love to talk, but with clothes on so we'll meet you in the pirate bar." April nodded and walked down the stairs towards the pirate bar, picking up her bags on the way over. Ville sat up fully, reaching down to get his pants. Bam sat beside him, pulling on his own. Bam had some odd feeling that Ville was hiding something from him, he wouldn't press it but he did want to know eventually. Bam didn't like not knowing something, when he felt like he should, and it was killing him that Ville might be hiding something from him, he could almost feel it. He pulled Ville up with him, holding his hand as they walked down to the pirate bar where April was waiting.
"I just want to let you know that your mother and I, we didn't want to keep you both apart. But, we thought it would be best for you to heal from being out of that horrible place, I'm so sorry." She touched his hand, smiling as Ville kissed the top of it.
"I didn't understand, it hurt me for the longest time, it still kind of does. Now, I can finally say it doens't bother me. It was under good intentions." He kissed Bam's cheek, smiling at the look April gave them both. It was the look of acceptance, one Bam always knew he had, but it was for Ville he really saw it shining through.
--~+~--
Ville stumbled up the stairs, he had drank with his medication, and he actually did regret drinking with them this time. Bam was downstairs still drinking while playing pool. Ville didn't know where he was going, he was out of his mind he never drank that much in a long time. He was scared he was going to wake up in the hospital, or outside up in a tree. "BAM!" he called, hitting into the wall. "Bam," he called again. Hearing the pounding from feet on the stairs, and the sounds of laughter drifting up to him.
"Ville, where the fuck are you?" Camw the cheerful voice of Bam. Ville turned around, staggering as he saw Bam swaying towards him. He put his hands on Bam's shoulders, steadying himself.
"Bammie, let's go to a safe place. Somewhere in the house, take me to a safe place." Ville touched Bam's cheek. Frowning at the reaction Bam was giving him.
Bam sobered up a bit at Ville's statement, wondering what was going through the Finn's head. Ville drank a whole lot more than he did, almost five bottles of beer more, and that was a lot. "Sure, I'll take you down to my room. Well, out room now," Bam gleamed, pulling the Finn with him.
Ville stood before the bed, holding his arms above his head, "Take my shirt off," he asked. Bam obeyed, pulling off the shirt, running his fingers over the light scars on Ville's chest from memories long ago. Ville bit his lip nervously, he knew something was going to happen, he knew they'd wake up in a weird spot, he just didn't want to wake up and find out.
Title: Say You Love Me Too
Author: absinthe_memory
Pairing: VAM
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own Ville or Bam. All incidents are fiction. But we all can dream.
Summary: Bam hit his head skating, his friend Ryan helped him. His memories of a hard time in Finland were on his mind, what will he do when he meets those memories face to face?
Ch 1-10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
A/N: I'm getting better YAY! Plus I took some pics hehe. April is in this one :) and Ville shows a side of him that didn't get shown before, you'll all see.
Ville stood before the sink in the pirate bar, holding two pills in his hand. Both are taken everyday, and then a sleeping pill just before bed. He closed his eyes as he washed them down with water. He wondered what Bam would think if he saw him taking these pills, what his reaction would be, and what he'd do. He was aweful, he drank all the time when he took them, that was also a reason why he almost killed himself. Ville knew what Bam's face would be like if he saw the pills he was taking, anti-depressants, and one to keep him calm so he wouldn't burst out into a violent fit.
He quickly put them in a cupboard, turning around when he saw Ryan walk in. "Ville, what was that?" he whispered softly, walking around the island towards Ville.
Ville bit his lip, looking anywhere but Ryan's face. "Pills that I take," he whispered, hoping Bam wasn't anywhere near them. Knowing Bam he'd probably just end up coming down the stairs, but he didn't thankfully.
"How long have you been taking them?" Ryan asked, his voice dropping low.
"Since I was 19, right after Bam left." Ryan nodded his head, catching on to the reason for the medication. He couldn't imagine a day without them, he feared he try something stupid and end up in the hospital for hurting himself. He grabbed Ryan's arms, looking in his eyes. "Don't, please don't tell Bam."
"Don't tell Bam what?" Bam asked, coming down the stairs. Ville looked over at Bam, trying to paste on a fake smile.
"That I wanted to stay here in West Chester for awhile," Ville lied, hoping Bam would agree to it, and not cause any problems.
Bam nodded his head. "That's a fantastic idea, you'll have to call and make sure the guys know, and Seppo."
--~+~--
Ville had called everyone he knew, telling them his new plan. He wanted to stay, but he hadn't thought it over before it came out of his mouth. He told Seppo he would be staying with Bam for a month, to get his health up, and when he feels better he'd head back to Finland. It was bugging him, that Ryan knew, and it worried him to new heights that Bam would find out. If Bam knew he'd make him stop taking the pills, he'd throw them down the drain, and in truth Ville hadn't knew a day after Bam leaving what it felt like without pills or drugs. It was something he held onto from being under Mont's control.
Bam was laying on the couch watching tv alone, this was the perfect chance for him to talk to Bam one on one. He sat down beside him, looking into the blue eyes fixed on the tv, Ville put his hand on Bam's knee as the brown haired boy turned his head towards him slowly. "Yeah Vil," he smiled lazily, lifting his arms over his head to stretch.
"Bam, I want to talk about last night." Ville looked in his eyes, overcome with his feelings. He stopped the tears from falling, he didn't want to break down in front of Bam.
"Yeah, it was fabulous," Bam grinned and continued on, "Just like I always pictured."
"That's great to know, but I want you to know it wasn't just a one time thing for me. You mean something to me Bam, you always have, and if you think this is just a easy fuck..." Bam cut Ville off, wrapping his arms around Ville, pulling the singer close to his chest. He wanted to hold Ville and tell him how he felt.
"It wasn't just sex to me, it never was about that. I thought it was like that for you. Ape is coming over later," Bam whispered against Ville's hair, finally able to pull the Finn down in his arms. He ran his hands though the short wavy hair of the singer, sighing at the half moan coming from Ville's lips.
"I want to stay like this with you Bam, always." He ran his hand down the side of Bam's hip, placing his lips on Bam's softly. He inched his other hand up Bam's shirt, his fingers crawling up the toned body beneath his hand. He was nervous as ever about Bam finding out about the pills, it was starting to haunt him. Imagine Bam finding them, what he'd do with them. Ville feared that above all, it wasn't the fact Bam would be curious or mad, he'd probably say Ville didn't need them, but he thought he did.
--~+~--
April walked in Castle Bam a few hours later, finding her son and a boy she saw before, but she couldn't place him. They were were shirtless, and covered in a tiny throw blanket that was half hanging off their hips, Bam was behind resting his face on the other's shoulder, while he was sleeping peacefully on a throw pillow. Their legs were entwined, bare and sticking out from under the tiny throw blanket. "Bam," she whispered, dropping the bags on a nearby chair. "Bam, honey."
Bam's head snapped up, while the Finn slowly opened his eyes in a daze. "APE, FUCK!" Bam screeched in shock, grabbing into Ville tighter. "Christ woman, what's gotten into you?" Bam demanded sternly, using Ville to cover most of his naked body, minus the tiny covered area by the blanket. April looked at the two boys with amusement, cocking her head to the side with a smile.
"Who's this Bam?"
"This is Ville, my new boyfriend," Bam said, lacing his fingers in Ville's. Ville looked up at the sound of boyfriend, smiling from ear to ear at Bam's choice in words.
"Ville, honey!" April screamed, running over quickly. "Oh my god, it's been too long. How are you?"
"I've been good, how are you?"
"Ville, what's that patch on your wrist?" April demanded, putting her hands on her hips, staring the Finn down. Ville gulped and told her the truth about the patch, watching her face turn from happy to sad. "Thank god for Bam," she said, taking a seat on the chair next to the leather couch.
Bam coughed, looking in April's direction. "Look, Ape. We'd love to talk, but with clothes on so we'll meet you in the pirate bar." April nodded and walked down the stairs towards the pirate bar, picking up her bags on the way over. Ville sat up fully, reaching down to get his pants. Bam sat beside him, pulling on his own. Bam had some odd feeling that Ville was hiding something from him, he wouldn't press it but he did want to know eventually. Bam didn't like not knowing something, when he felt like he should, and it was killing him that Ville might be hiding something from him, he could almost feel it. He pulled Ville up with him, holding his hand as they walked down to the pirate bar where April was waiting.
"I just want to let you know that your mother and I, we didn't want to keep you both apart. But, we thought it would be best for you to heal from being out of that horrible place, I'm so sorry." She touched his hand, smiling as Ville kissed the top of it.
"I didn't understand, it hurt me for the longest time, it still kind of does. Now, I can finally say it doens't bother me. It was under good intentions." He kissed Bam's cheek, smiling at the look April gave them both. It was the look of acceptance, one Bam always knew he had, but it was for Ville he really saw it shining through.
--~+~--
Ville stumbled up the stairs, he had drank with his medication, and he actually did regret drinking with them this time. Bam was downstairs still drinking while playing pool. Ville didn't know where he was going, he was out of his mind he never drank that much in a long time. He was scared he was going to wake up in the hospital, or outside up in a tree. "BAM!" he called, hitting into the wall. "Bam," he called again. Hearing the pounding from feet on the stairs, and the sounds of laughter drifting up to him.
"Ville, where the fuck are you?" Camw the cheerful voice of Bam. Ville turned around, staggering as he saw Bam swaying towards him. He put his hands on Bam's shoulders, steadying himself.
"Bammie, let's go to a safe place. Somewhere in the house, take me to a safe place." Ville touched Bam's cheek. Frowning at the reaction Bam was giving him.
Bam sobered up a bit at Ville's statement, wondering what was going through the Finn's head. Ville drank a whole lot more than he did, almost five bottles of beer more, and that was a lot. "Sure, I'll take you down to my room. Well, out room now," Bam gleamed, pulling the Finn with him.
Ville stood before the bed, holding his arms above his head, "Take my shirt off," he asked. Bam obeyed, pulling off the shirt, running his fingers over the light scars on Ville's chest from memories long ago. Ville bit his lip nervously, he knew something was going to happen, he knew they'd wake up in a weird spot, he just didn't want to wake up and find out.