New Fic - I'm taking back the life you stole... 09
TITLE : I’m taking back the life you stole…
AUTHOR: ladyeigh (caliburn.kira)
RATING: R (NC-17 at the end)
PAIRING: VAM (Ville Valo/Bam Margera), Waycest (Mikey/Gerard)
POV: Third person
SUMMARY: A harsh day and a long talk…
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, didn’t happen and didn’t see anything… promise
NOTES: To Hergerbabe .... Happy Birthday Hunaja
Her birthday present which she said I could publish!
Chapter one
Chapter two
Chapter three
Chapter four
Chapter five
Chapter six
Chapter seven
Chapter eight
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Their hands separated; Gee scrubbing through his hair and Ville returning to his phone, playing with the flip again. It took the American a little time to realise that he was flicking the hinge to the beat of ‘King of Rock and Roll’.
“Do you want some privacy?”
Gerard’s voice interrupted the rhythmical musing.
“Privacy?”
“To call.”
“No point. No-one to call now.”
“What do you mean?”
“The band are in Helsinki, it’s night there. Bam is on tour and filming in Japan and some Pacific Islands - it’s before dawn or early morning and he has a demo to prepare for - he needs to be rested.”
“Who else could you…?”
“Ape. But I can’t tell her about this. She’s practically my mom. I ended up crying on her shoulder before and I don’t think I can do it again.”
“Can I help?”
“Who do you call? I mean, who would you like to talk to right now?”
“Mikey. Always Mikey or the rest of the band. I guess Ray since I’ve known him the longest but they’ve all helped.”
“You really love him.”
“With all my heart, with all that I am. The Warped Tour organisers set up AA meetings on the road really helped a lot of us, more than would admit it in public for certain.”
“Rock star vibe!”
“Uh-huh. I can stand up in a group and make my announcement, you know ‘My name is Gerard and I’m an alcoholic and a Drug Abuser’ but it means nothing without Mikey. I got clean for me but I stay clean for him.”
“Lot of pressure.”
“Me or him? He’s seen me at my very worst, drunk out of my mind, loaded and hallucinating. He’s patched me up, from accidents and deliberate cuts. Held back my hair and held my hand. He learnt to play bass in about a fortnight so he could be in the band, hell - he named the band.”
“Bam is learning to speak Finnish. And he kind of picked the first single release from Darklight.”
“Did the others mind?”
“No. I think they were pleased that he calmed me down.”
“You know what I’ll always remember?”
“No!”
“My first fully sober gig. It was fucking terrifying. I don’t think I’d ever sung without at least a double in my system. Holy shit - seeing faces, don’t think that had happened before either.”
“First gig for me was a couple of nights after Minneapolis. That one is a blur because of the drugs that were still in my system, but fully sober - that was fucking scary. Bam was in the wings and Lily kept playing from just behind me so I knew he was there. I held onto the mike stand so I didn’t shake too much!”
They looked at each other and started to laugh, ending up leaning on each other in helpless gales - unable to stop!
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A discreet cough from behind them made them swallow their hilarity slightly and they turned to see another of the camera team’s innumerable assistants.
“Mr Way, Mr Valo. We need you back upstairs please. The last of the subjects have arrived and we’re prepping for the main group.”
She shrugged a small smile and went back in, racing up the steps.
“We should go back.”
“Wait. Ville - call.”
“Early or late - I’ll wake them.”
“So. Wake someone. Will they mind?”
“No, but I will.”
“Don’t. I did this once. Decided not to bother Mikey. When I got home - not an argument I ever want to repeat.”
“Compromise. I’ll text, let them know.”
Ville tapped out a message and sent it twice before looking at the newly blank screen.
“Done?”
“Mige and Lily - yes. What do I say to Bam?”
“That you miss him? Love him?”
Ville cocked his head to the side, bit his lip once more and then tapped away. The tension in his shoulders eased slightly when he hit send.
“OK.”
“Feel better?”
“Actually. Yes, a little.”
Gee hauled himself up, pulled up his pants from where they had slipped down, rolled his neck and held out a hand. Ville gripped it and was hauled up to his feet. They looked at each other and then Gee leant in, curling his arms around the slim Finn. Ville draped his arms over the American’s shoulders, sharing the comfort offered. A few moments of reassurance and they stepped back.
“Ready?”
“Ei… No.”
Gee offered his hand again and Ville took it.
“Come on.”
A gentle tug and they were off, back to the Dragon’s lair.
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AUTHOR: ladyeigh (caliburn.kira)
RATING: R (NC-17 at the end)
PAIRING: VAM (Ville Valo/Bam Margera), Waycest (Mikey/Gerard)
POV: Third person
SUMMARY: A harsh day and a long talk…
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, didn’t happen and didn’t see anything… promise
NOTES: To Hergerbabe .... Happy Birthday Hunaja
Her birthday present which she said I could publish!
Chapter one
Chapter two
Chapter three
Chapter four
Chapter five
Chapter six
Chapter seven
Chapter eight
@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@
Their hands separated; Gee scrubbing through his hair and Ville returning to his phone, playing with the flip again. It took the American a little time to realise that he was flicking the hinge to the beat of ‘King of Rock and Roll’.
“Do you want some privacy?”
Gerard’s voice interrupted the rhythmical musing.
“Privacy?”
“To call.”
“No point. No-one to call now.”
“What do you mean?”
“The band are in Helsinki, it’s night there. Bam is on tour and filming in Japan and some Pacific Islands - it’s before dawn or early morning and he has a demo to prepare for - he needs to be rested.”
“Who else could you…?”
“Ape. But I can’t tell her about this. She’s practically my mom. I ended up crying on her shoulder before and I don’t think I can do it again.”
“Can I help?”
“Who do you call? I mean, who would you like to talk to right now?”
“Mikey. Always Mikey or the rest of the band. I guess Ray since I’ve known him the longest but they’ve all helped.”
“You really love him.”
“With all my heart, with all that I am. The Warped Tour organisers set up AA meetings on the road really helped a lot of us, more than would admit it in public for certain.”
“Rock star vibe!”
“Uh-huh. I can stand up in a group and make my announcement, you know ‘My name is Gerard and I’m an alcoholic and a Drug Abuser’ but it means nothing without Mikey. I got clean for me but I stay clean for him.”
“Lot of pressure.”
“Me or him? He’s seen me at my very worst, drunk out of my mind, loaded and hallucinating. He’s patched me up, from accidents and deliberate cuts. Held back my hair and held my hand. He learnt to play bass in about a fortnight so he could be in the band, hell - he named the band.”
“Bam is learning to speak Finnish. And he kind of picked the first single release from Darklight.”
“Did the others mind?”
“No. I think they were pleased that he calmed me down.”
“You know what I’ll always remember?”
“No!”
“My first fully sober gig. It was fucking terrifying. I don’t think I’d ever sung without at least a double in my system. Holy shit - seeing faces, don’t think that had happened before either.”
“First gig for me was a couple of nights after Minneapolis. That one is a blur because of the drugs that were still in my system, but fully sober - that was fucking scary. Bam was in the wings and Lily kept playing from just behind me so I knew he was there. I held onto the mike stand so I didn’t shake too much!”
They looked at each other and started to laugh, ending up leaning on each other in helpless gales - unable to stop!
@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@
A discreet cough from behind them made them swallow their hilarity slightly and they turned to see another of the camera team’s innumerable assistants.
“Mr Way, Mr Valo. We need you back upstairs please. The last of the subjects have arrived and we’re prepping for the main group.”
She shrugged a small smile and went back in, racing up the steps.
“We should go back.”
“Wait. Ville - call.”
“Early or late - I’ll wake them.”
“So. Wake someone. Will they mind?”
“No, but I will.”
“Don’t. I did this once. Decided not to bother Mikey. When I got home - not an argument I ever want to repeat.”
“Compromise. I’ll text, let them know.”
Ville tapped out a message and sent it twice before looking at the newly blank screen.
“Done?”
“Mige and Lily - yes. What do I say to Bam?”
“That you miss him? Love him?”
Ville cocked his head to the side, bit his lip once more and then tapped away. The tension in his shoulders eased slightly when he hit send.
“OK.”
“Feel better?”
“Actually. Yes, a little.”
Gee hauled himself up, pulled up his pants from where they had slipped down, rolled his neck and held out a hand. Ville gripped it and was hauled up to his feet. They looked at each other and then Gee leant in, curling his arms around the slim Finn. Ville draped his arms over the American’s shoulders, sharing the comfort offered. A few moments of reassurance and they stepped back.
“Ready?”
“Ei… No.”
Gee offered his hand again and Ville took it.
“Come on.”
A gentle tug and they were off, back to the Dragon’s lair.
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