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What a crappy night.
I feel like I should be angry... but I dont. And I'm half not. And I'm not sure if I should be or not. And anger is not like me. I'm just extremely disappointed and can't stand people most of the time.
But seriously... I just wasted 4 and a half hours of my time standing in a useless line and running around the city for absolutely no reason. There is tonnes of stuff I could've done with that time.
I'm not blaming anyone.. its not really anyones fault. But I knew I should've just gone home. Especially after the Dance Cave nonsense.
Mostly, I just don't understand why NOBODY can effing make a plan and stick to it for once. I'm a plan freak, I know, but I am fairly certain that that is a good trait. It drives me absolutely insane and leaves me absolutely dumbfounded when people can't just say something and stick to their word... getting my hopes up for everything, and having nothing in the end.
I'm disappointed... but not? I dont know. I am, but I also feel like Im making more out of this than I should be.
But Im also the kind of person who doesnt believe in bad moods and anger and the like. I think its a waste of time and energy... so Ill get this feeling with anything that disturbs me this way. Again, I'm not blaming anyone, certainly not YOU... so don't take it that way. I just needed somewhere to rant. Tonight sucked.
I feel like I should be angry... but I dont. And I'm half not. And I'm not sure if I should be or not. And anger is not like me. I'm just extremely disappointed and can't stand people most of the time.
But seriously... I just wasted 4 and a half hours of my time standing in a useless line and running around the city for absolutely no reason. There is tonnes of stuff I could've done with that time.
I'm not blaming anyone.. its not really anyones fault. But I knew I should've just gone home. Especially after the Dance Cave nonsense.
Mostly, I just don't understand why NOBODY can effing make a plan and stick to it for once. I'm a plan freak, I know, but I am fairly certain that that is a good trait. It drives me absolutely insane and leaves me absolutely dumbfounded when people can't just say something and stick to their word... getting my hopes up for everything, and having nothing in the end.
I'm disappointed... but not? I dont know. I am, but I also feel like Im making more out of this than I should be.
But Im also the kind of person who doesnt believe in bad moods and anger and the like. I think its a waste of time and energy... so Ill get this feeling with anything that disturbs me this way. Again, I'm not blaming anyone, certainly not YOU... so don't take it that way. I just needed somewhere to rant. Tonight sucked.