Feb 05, 2005 18:37
the thing is,
i don't care about sex anymore. and it's pretty clear to me that sex is all Amanda cares about.
I really just want to be in a real relationship with someone who cares about me just as much as i care about them. I've spent a year loving someone that never really cared enough. Maybe i'm just being overly emotional, but she's not here right now.
last night, we laid in bed and i just held her. she was fast asleep, but i couldn't get myself to close my eyes. I just laid there beside her, holding onto her and watching her sleep.
in the morning, i was already awake before her, i stayed in bed. she woke up, looked at me, smiled and said
"I could lay in bed with you all day long justin."
half and hour later she got up; got dressed and went out the door.
maybe we're just getting tired of this, that we've become completely used of each other.
maybe the spark just isn't there anymore.