waiting for the end
This is how I feel right now
Whenever I'm in my most passive, reflective, introverted state, I have things come looking for me.
I BET! Its the stupid appeal of the meek harmless creature. Well still waters run deep, for I have a huge storm brewing inside that has only begun to dissipate. And it is dissipating only because another storm has come, one that I never want to end.
I scheduled my enlightenment for November, and it has to seriously happen. I'm supposed to finally find my isolated self in the universe and confirm my existence forevermore. But unfortunately, I'm not the Buddha (i wish.) and while things have come to mess with my head, I can only try to not let it affect my perfect ending too much.
At least I know something is about to happen, and to me it is significant like nothing on earth. It is also not coincidental that I'm drawn to songs about Moving on (and a concert haha).
Really can't believe that years on, I'm still writing about this. I know failures are failures, but I don't accept them. If November doesn't work out, I'd be damned but fine I'll deal with it then.
The hardest part of ending is starting again!!!
Bloody childhood band is still alive and in my head.
Whenever I'm in my most passive, reflective, introverted state, I have things come looking for me.
I BET! Its the stupid appeal of the meek harmless creature. Well still waters run deep, for I have a huge storm brewing inside that has only begun to dissipate. And it is dissipating only because another storm has come, one that I never want to end.
I scheduled my enlightenment for November, and it has to seriously happen. I'm supposed to finally find my isolated self in the universe and confirm my existence forevermore. But unfortunately, I'm not the Buddha (i wish.) and while things have come to mess with my head, I can only try to not let it affect my perfect ending too much.
At least I know something is about to happen, and to me it is significant like nothing on earth. It is also not coincidental that I'm drawn to songs about Moving on (and a concert haha).
Really can't believe that years on, I'm still writing about this. I know failures are failures, but I don't accept them. If November doesn't work out, I'd be damned but fine I'll deal with it then.
The hardest part of ending is starting again!!!
Bloody childhood band is still alive and in my head.