and i love you dumb and colorblind.

[__uptight]

i feel the need to write something here, but i'm not exactly sure what about. everything is going well in my life right now and by all intents and purposes i should be very happy. and i am. but something is bothering me and i'm not really sure what it is. i think i'm afraid that if i put it down into words it would make it real. whatever "it" happens to be. something just isn't right.

i feel like i'm walking on a tightrope or something, and if i sway a little bit everything will just fall. or like...i don't know. like things might just slip out of my hands if i look away for a second.

i think i might have already lost something, but i just don't know what it could be.

oh, god, i feel like i'm going to vomit.