I need to clear my head...
I've felt the need to write for quite a while, and I've just been ignoring it. But I'm done putting off my thoughts. I don't know what I am doing anymore. I am just confused about everything. I've met a pretty awesome group of people, but I feel like I am just ditching my other group. And, I've lost a friend so far. Aaron. That was pretty rough on me... but I know I can't dwell on it, especially since I am spending so much time dwelling on other things. Not to mention there's this guy who I think I could really like, but I am so afraid that it won't work out. I want to be with him. Shit... that's the first time I've even said that. I haven't even vocalized my desire to be with him yet... and just typing it was difficult. I've been hurt by 2 different guys within the past 2 months, and I am afraid that if I try to be with Cameron, that'll make 3 guys in 3 months. Let's face it, my track record is not all that good. Let's also take into account the fact that I have felt like shit for a little over a month now. I don't know if it's the weather or what, but I always feel so BLAH. I mean... eww... who wants to always feel like shit? Not I. But for some reason I can't shake this. AND. I think mentally/emotionally I may have an issue. I am beginning to think I am be bipolar and a manic depressive. Maybe I am just fucked up. Hurray. Anyways... I have to leave for english class in a few minutes... so I'm outtie. peace.